Venting dealing with loneliness

[notrllycherub]

I know quite a lot of people and sometimes I feel like I really shouldn't feel as lonely as I do, but right now the only person that is willing to talk with me is my best friend. Before I broke up with my ex, we spent a lot of time talking together. Despite our distance, it made dealing with my feelings not as hard (I felt a lot better honestly, I miss him sometimes), but now that we don't talk as often, I started to feel even worse than before. I spend most of my days alone, unless I reach out to my bsf. I do have some friends from school, but they won't talk with me, unless I text them first. If it weren't for final exams, I would reach out to my friends outside of school. Spending most of my time studying made me feel very isolated tbh

 

[artificialpasta]

I've been lonely all my life ... there are moments of extreme loneliness that I've only recently learned to accept is depression (my mom had violent depressive episodes and I did not like the idea of associating with that) ... these days the best I can do is distract myself ... pixels on the screen are no substitute ... past a certain age it gets difficult to build real relationships from scratch, especially if you aren't a gregarious person

Please cherish your best friend. Remind them how much you love them (within the context of your relationship of course, don't make it weird).