Venting Dead grandmother

[Exhausted1705]

She lived me and gave me everything. I recklessly spent money she'd saved for me. I have dropped out of school. I just really fucked up. And you know what? I have no idea how to fix it. My family will always remember what a fuck up I was. I had the urge to ctb today, didn't know it would be her last day. I can never forgive myself. I really hate myself and being alive.
Tried to hang so many times, almost took paracetamol. Thought of taking tramahexal. I don't know, I just want to be gone. I need it to work. I can't go on.

 

[Soul]

@Exhausted1705, I'm sorry about your grandmother; I hope she didn't suffer long and that she wasn't scared.

Don't try to od on paracetamol. It will only fuck your liver up. Please just do what you can to get some good rest and you can think about these things later.

 

[Exhausted1705]

@Exhausted1705, I'm sorry about your grandmother; I hope she didn't suffer long and that she wasn't scared.

Don't try to od on paracetamol. It will only fuck your liver up. Please just do what you can to get some good rest and you can think about these things later.

Thanks. She was in pain towards the end, hopefully not scared. If there is a heaven, she is there,reuniting with my mother.

 

[Incorrigible77777]

Same. My grandmother passed away in March. And I plan to CTB in October.