Basically my mum is on holiday next week and I had planned to ctb then. Now it's closer I'm starting to feel anxious. Not about the dying part, im actually excited about that part.
This has happened before last year I had a date for 31 October but then when the day come I felt like I couldn't breathe. I'm worried it will happen again.
I'm sad and lonely right now it just came suddenly but I'm not sure I want to die feeling negative emotions. I've also spent my entire life scared I don't want to feel that same anxiety when I die.
Also I'm worried about the actual doing part. What if I survive? What if I don't have the courage? What if someone sees and calls the police?
I don't do dates only vibes. So hopefully I'll go on a walk and get the "perfect evening to die" vibes
This has happened before last year I had a date for 31 October but then when the day come I felt like I couldn't breathe. I'm worried it will happen again.
I'm sad and lonely right now it just came suddenly but I'm not sure I want to die feeling negative emotions. I've also spent my entire life scared I don't want to feel that same anxiety when I die.
Also I'm worried about the actual doing part. What if I survive? What if I don't have the courage? What if someone sees and calls the police?
I don't do dates only vibes. So hopefully I'll go on a walk and get the "perfect evening to die" vibes
