Venting Damn. I don't think there's a way out of this hell.

[nautilus]

I bought the rebreather but it diesnt seem safe ir reliable to me. N seems risky and complicated to get into old blighty. Every other method is off the table for various reasons. Feeling utterly trapped. I thought the rebreather was the answer!

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand that it is awful to feel trapped. All I want is to fall asleep and never wake up. We all deserve the option of a peaceful, dignified death and I hate how it is so difficult. I wish you well.

 

[nautilus]

I understand that it is awful to feel trapped. All I want is to fall asleep and never wake up. We all deserve the option of a peaceful, dignified death and I hate how it is so difficult. I wish you well.

I wish you well too. This is a crazy world we live in for sure

 

[Snake of Eden]

I have N but im not able to overcome SI. I feel trapped as much as you do

 

[nautilus]

I have N but im not able to overcome SI. I feel trapped as much as you do

I can imagine. I think I would be the same... even if I had in my posession.

 

[Snake of Eden]

I can imagine. I think I would be the same... even if I had in my posession.

It is the most impactful decision to make. I am literally being tortured by my existence every second from waking to sleep yet i cant bring myself to do it. I am afraid it will go on until i die of natural causes and i would live decades in poverty, lonliness, disease and boredom. I truly dont know what to do

 

[nautilus]

It is the most impactful decision to make. I am literally being tortured by my existence every second from waking to sleep yet i cant bring myself to do it. I am afraid it will go on until i die of natural causes and i would live decades in poverty, lonliness, disease and boredom. I truly dont know what to do

Well I am in the same boat... poverty, loneliness, disease and boredom. I prolly have only 2 decades left.. but i dont wanna get old now.

 

[apathetic.]

Can pretty much relate. I hope we find a way out of this soon

 

[nautilus]

Can pretty much relate. I hope we find a way out of this soon

So sorry to hear. Hope so too

 

[Death is beautiful]

It is the most impactful decision to make. I am literally being tortured by my existence every second from waking to sleep yet i cant bring myself to do it. I am afraid it will go on until i die of natural causes and i would live decades in poverty, lonliness, disease and boredom. I truly dont know what to do

I have N but im not able to overcome SI. I feel trapped as much as you do

is it really that hard to drink N? Try to fool the SI, just drink and sleep thinking that you wake up in the morning

 

[Snake of Eden]

is it really that hard to drink N? Try to fool the SI, just drink and sleep thinking that you wake up in the morning

Yes. It tastes like crap. Good luck fooling yourself you are going to wake up when you know that you spent all that time in preparation not to ever wake up again. SI is not a dumb bitch

 

[nautilus]

I have SN waiting to be picked up, and I have a meto prescription waiting to be filled, but I just can't gain the motivation to actually go and get them. I had a spike where I was actively going to do it on Saturday, but I've run out of steam now, yet still feel miserable

Im sure I would be the same. Its all so surreal.

 

[3691215]

If I had N I wouldnt think twice. Would just drink there and then. Life is so peaceful while we are asleep. Imagine sleeping forever. Beautiful

 

[Death is beautiful]

Yes. It tastes like crap. Good luck fooling yourself you are going to wake up when you know that you spent all that time in preparation not to ever wake up again. SI is not a dumb bitch

it will be sad if you don't accept N anyway and it expires

 

[Snake of Eden]

it will be sad if you don't accept N anyway and it expires

I hope something changes and that I use it oneday hopefully soon

 

[Death is beautiful]

I hope something changes and that I use it oneday hopefully soon

Good luck!