Damn bitch, you paid money to feel like this?

[Oblivion Access]

*scratching self every 2 seconds, sniffling, hearing voices (?), specks of dirt moving/looking like bugs, getting in arguments and falling out with people*
Man, maybe I should have stuck to smoking weed after all, huh. Okay, I'm not having any today! Oh wow, being sober is miserable. I mean... just 2 pills can't hurt right?
I'm such a fool, gotta throw this shit out before I do something I'll really regret. It's nice to have a brief respite from ctb thoughts but at what point is the hell I unleash upon myself worse than the hell I'm trying to escape?

 

[jackodonnell]

What did you take?

 

[Oblivion Access]

What did you take?

Weird opioid with SNRI activity called Tapentadol. It's... Okay, presumably nicer in moderation. Only on it because i couldn't get anything better.

 

[jackodonnell]

Was it prescribed?

 

[Oblivion Access]

Was it prescribed?

Nah. Not for me, anyhoo

 

[LongtimeLoser]

It's doesn't matter if opioids are prescribed or not. They completely fuck with your head. I realize they have their uses, but anything longer than a week's worth, maybe two, (in your entire life) and you are fucked… opioids are bad news. I wish they were never prescribed to me.

 

[Oblivion Access]

It's doesn't matter if opioids are prescribed or not. They completely fuck with your head. I realize they have their uses, but anything longer than a week's worth, maybe two, (in your entire life) and you are fucked… opioids are bad news. I wish they were never prescribed to me.

Yeah i had to learn the hard way, after 2 months where my life revolved around using H i cannot ever stop thinking about it. A Pandora's box if there ever was one

 

[LongtimeLoser]

Yeah i had to learn the hard way, after 2 months where my life revolved around using H i cannot ever stop thinking about it. A Pandora's box if there ever was one

Now that my health is so bad, and I long to CTB, I have given some thought to taking opioids again. I stopped all on my own (they were always prescribed, never abused, like that matters) about 3 years ago, but I'd love to CTB by trying H… IV H… for the first time :)

 

[Oblivion Access]

Now that my health is so bad, and I long to CTB, I have given some thought to taking opioids again. I stopped all on my own (they were always prescribed, never abused, like that matters) about 3 years ago, but I'd love to CTB by trying H… IV H… for the first time :)

I fantasize about this and still kinda do, but a lot can go wrong tbh, loving it so much you decide you'll live only so you can be a slave to a chemical compound is a grim fate I don't wish on anyone. At least suicide is quick once you have everything you need, with opiates you die slowly while losing everyone and everything you used to care about and become a shell of past self.