Daily thought

[jimmy7754]

I sometimes have this daily thought that comes around mid late afternoon when my panic attacks and anxiety have calmed down a bit.. it's this feeling of clarity over my constant overthinking of how bad things are getting for me.. once I feel it.. I have this rush and feeling that I shouldn't be scared to die at all.. that this made up suffering of consciousness moving through my life here will end and it's okay to want it to end.. there shouldn't be anything to worry about in death... I've had enough of it and there's nothing to fear.. it will be my perfect escape... but then I come back to my anxiety ridden feelings and panic where my survival instincts come in and I need to find something to eat and realize how hard difficult it is for me to die.. and I get back to where I was.

 

[Rational man]

In the end, we all fall silent in the great recycling of life. I see in nature when my carer takes me to the forest. Im 36 and incurable. I realised that the only life certainty is today. Kids die, old people die. Most of the time, Im comfortable with the notion that life is impermanence; as a fresh faced 36 Year old man or a dried up prune at 90...we all do die and we die our unique way. Some deaths or dying processes are peaceful or like mine, painful. I look forward to my eternal PEACE❤

 

[FuneralCry]

For me personally, the thought of dying is the only thing that brings me some comfort. I believe that there is nothing after this, and when I die I will be free from all my suffering. There is no point to fearing death, it is inevitable for us all anyway. Our lives are all so temporary and meaningless, we do not matter at all. I just wish that it was easier to leave this world. All I want is to peacefully pass away.