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gardenoflonely

gardenoflonely

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Apr 29, 2026
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I wonder if adding ginger to the smoothie would help with speed? Ginger supplements have been shown to speed up gastric emptying, not sure if that would be of any help here though
 
FrustratedMTFtrans

FrustratedMTFtrans

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Apr 17, 2026
65
So something like https://a.co/d/2bDDeYf
Would be enough to cause death
The link relates to an apricot kernels from a commercial supplier who does not deliver to my country. As a commercial product, it may have been processed with some treatment that reduces toxicity. But if especially bitter rather than sweet apricot stones are cracked open by individuals, the kernels extracted and then thoroughly chewed, 30 kernels may suffice to cause death, if all are ingested at once. Some reports refer to quite severe symptoms of cyanide poisoning with ingestion of just 3 such kernels, if they are well chewed..
 
gardenoflonely

gardenoflonely

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Apr 29, 2026
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The link relates to an apricot kernels from a commercial supplier who does not deliver to my country. As a commercial product, it may have been processed with some treatment that reduces toxicity. But if especially bitter rather than sweet apricot stones are cracked open by individuals, the kernels extracted and then thoroughly chewed, 30 kernels may suffice to cause death, if all are ingested at once. Some reports refer to quite severe symptoms of cyanide poisoning with ingestion of just 3 such kernels, if they are well chewed..
Honestly those are the brand I tried to order and I'm not sure what happened but they never got delivered to me. I don't know if I should try and reorder if it just got lost in the mail or something or what. Or switch to another seed entirely but the bitter almonds are harder to find and cherries take too many. Same with apples imo. I feel so desperate and helpless at this point though I'm wanting to grab a couple lbs of cherries and just cut them open for the seeds. That doesn't seem practical though with how many it would take. I'm just tired, I thought I would already be gone by now
 
FrustratedMTFtrans

FrustratedMTFtrans

Member
Apr 17, 2026
65
Honestly those are the brand I tried to order and I'm not sure what happened but they never got delivered to me. I don't know if I should try and reorder if it just got lost in the mail or something or what. Or switch to another seed entirely but the bitter almonds are harder to find and cherries take too many. Same with apples imo. I feel so desperate and helpless at this point though I'm wanting to grab a couple lbs of cherries and just cut them open for the seeds. That doesn't seem practical though with how many it would take. I'm just tired, I thought I would already be gone by now
9-10 morello cherry kernels are fatal, forget red or black cherry kernels, they are not efficient.
 
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budbud29

budbud29

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May 8, 2026
6
So you can eat 40 raw almonds and it will kill you? Where can you purchase them at. And how do you go about doing it. Do you just eat them or have to prepare them a certain type of way?
 
Fadenself00_

Fadenself00_

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Sep 21, 2025
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i'm pretty sure it just contains a compound that metabolizes to cyanide, so it would be "bottlenecked" so to speak.
 
gardenoflonely

gardenoflonely

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Apr 29, 2026
46
the package came somehow today wow i really did think it was lost, it said it was delivered days ago. so strange. maybe it was in the wrong mailbox and got reset to me idk, i never found out exactly what happened because i wasn't able to contact the post office before . idk either way im just happy it still made its way to me. i thinki should buy a separate blender, idk?? im worried that using the blender i already have, if anyone were to use it after it would never be clean enough and have a small bit of seed left behind?? i don't want anyone to be hurt by it. not sure if that's just being extra paranoid or not
 
BlueMist96

BlueMist96

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May 12, 2026
42
This sounds like a lot of work for a method that is going to be very unpleasant in the end.
 

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