CTB without being found

[tiredandconfused]

I have battled for years. Seen glimpses of hope but always failed. I have attempted in the past and been found. I know I want to CTB soon. I don't want to be found not just cos I don't want to be saved but because I don't want anyone professional or not to be traumatised by finding me. I don't know if anyone else holds that guilt of making sure my decisions don't hurt others. I don't have any family or friends. I have a cat but I think I can make sure she is ok. It's more that the methods I've used in the past probably aren't right. I feel really desperate at the moment.

 

[Noctis]

I don't know your situation, but if your method is quiet and won't poison your body, you can try out in the woods and hope the coyotes and vultures find you before a person does. Just know if you poison yourself, the animals can smell it and might not eat you, and you might still be recognizable when your body is found.

 

[Crazy4u]

I am the same way. The location of ctb is the most challenging thing. I can't do it in a hotel or at home. I was thinking ctb inside my covered car in an isolated area is the best option

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, I do not want to be found either. In an ideal world I would like to completely disappear, with my existence erased from everyones memory. However I tell myself that it does not really matter who finds me as I will be dead by that point. I know it is hard to carry on when you are suffering so much. I wish you the best.

 

[looking.glass]

Woods would be the best choice.

The problem is getting to a rural enough place that you won't be found. Avoid areas where it is OK to hunt, hunters find a lot of bodies.

If you can't get someone to drive you, drive yourself, leave a note in the car saying where you will be hiking, and go the other way. Go where nobody in their right mind would hike, the farther the better.

Search and Rescue looks on trails, and where they think a lost hiker would go. That's down towards a river or creek if the hiker is going to follow it to a town, or uphill if a hiker wants to figure out where they are. Exactly where not to go.