It's been weeks of possibly the worst ideation i've ever had. This week I think i'll have an opportunity.
I'll be going out with my mom and step dad, to my step dads brothers house, out in the rural sticks of minnesota.
I've been lead to believe we will be around a ton of guns and plenty of ammunition. So i'm really hoping he has a shotgun i can sneak away with at night.
My plan so far, is to wait for everyone to pass out drunk, then I'm going to yank his shotgun, or any other gun should there not be one. I'll just start walking in a random direction, the area is surrounded by dense forest. So i'll probably dress warm and get as deep into the woods as I can.
I may leave a note stating I left to start a new life. I'm 24 so it wouldn't be so far fetched. My family knows i've been having serious issues mentally, so they may see through it, plus whenever they realize a gun is missing.
I may live stream it so that my friends are forced to watch. I don't have any social media right now, though. I don't know if I'll do that, though. I don't like the idea of myself being turned into suicide porn like Ronnie McNutt. But i just might.
I really wish things were okay. I wish i didn't feel like I have to really do this. If all goes according to plan and I don't back out, it'll be a week from tonight.
I guess that's about all I have to say about that.
I'll be going out with my mom and step dad, to my step dads brothers house, out in the rural sticks of minnesota.
I've been lead to believe we will be around a ton of guns and plenty of ammunition. So i'm really hoping he has a shotgun i can sneak away with at night.
My plan so far, is to wait for everyone to pass out drunk, then I'm going to yank his shotgun, or any other gun should there not be one. I'll just start walking in a random direction, the area is surrounded by dense forest. So i'll probably dress warm and get as deep into the woods as I can.
I may leave a note stating I left to start a new life. I'm 24 so it wouldn't be so far fetched. My family knows i've been having serious issues mentally, so they may see through it, plus whenever they realize a gun is missing.
I may live stream it so that my friends are forced to watch. I don't have any social media right now, though. I don't know if I'll do that, though. I don't like the idea of myself being turned into suicide porn like Ronnie McNutt. But i just might.
I really wish things were okay. I wish i didn't feel like I have to really do this. If all goes according to plan and I don't back out, it'll be a week from tonight.
I guess that's about all I have to say about that.
