Reishi

Reishi

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
1,903
Here is a final goodbye that is not directed to a specific person, but rather a message to help the people who cared about me find solace in my loss.

As I prepare to take this journey, I want to express my deepest gratitude for the love, support, and memories that have filled my life. I am at peace, knowing that I have lived fully and loved deeply caring over and over even when people never saw it.

To those who have walked beside me, thank you for the laughter, the tears, and the moments that have shaped my existence. I carry each of you in my heart as I step into this unknown.

I am not saying goodbye, but rather, I am taking a new path, one that leads to a better peace for me.I am not afraid, for I know that I have other waiting for me in the vast nothingness.

Please do not mourn for me, but rather celebrate the life we shared and the love that will forever bind us. Remember me the positive and know that my spirit will always be with you through memories .

Live your lives to the fullest, embrace new experiences, and never forget that love is the most powerful force in the universe.... if you let it be. It is my love for you all that will continue to shine brightly, even as I move on.

Farewell, my dear friends and family. Until we meet again in the realms beyond, know that I am forever grateful for the time we shared in this hectic life.

With all my love,
Hela

I hope Im remembered on this forum for being helpful to many people, I know I've helped a few individuals find peace and I've been around long enough here to help many people get better.
I hope I was enough for a lot of you and I hope you all find a way forward without me any longer.
Thank you for making me make a impact on your lives ... and thank you for making some impacts on me me .
I love you all and I hope we all see each other or we all find our place in the nothingness we have waiting for us . Goodbye Sanctioned Suicide it's been a hell of a ride .






Goodbye everyone
 
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itsgone2

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I hope you find the peace you've long searched for
 
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fruitninjamaster

fruitninjamaster

I love the high of choking myself
Dec 21, 2025
75
This is a wonderful message and I will carry your soul with me, rest, you deserve it
 
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Liebestod

Liebestod

Suicide Enthusiast (2006-2026???)
Mar 15, 2025
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Peace be with you.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Visionary
May 10, 2025
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love and peace to you ❤️🕊️
 
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interna

o7 o7 o7 o7
Dec 1, 2025
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goodbye. rest easy
 
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Deepdense

Deepdense

Student
Dec 30, 2025
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I hope this doesn't have to be it but I understand why you're doing it. You've been through a lot.
 
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idiotmother

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Mar 21, 2025
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Good luck to you 💜
 
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woodlandcreature

tired | they/it | feel free to reach out
Apr 3, 2024
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I hope you find peace; thank you for everything…
 
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Reishi

Reishi

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
1,903
I broke my goddamn fucking toe kicking the fucking chair , I am so fucking pissed right now.
I'm taking a moment I'm taking a fucking moment... I know I can get this right
 
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Deepdense

Deepdense

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Dec 30, 2025
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I broke my goddamn fucking toe kicking the fucking chair , I am so fucking pissed right now.
I'm taking a moment I'm taking a fucking moment... I know I can get this right
How do you feel about what you're about to do?
 
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Terrible_Life

Terrible_Life

Mage
Jul 3, 2025
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I broke my goddamn fucking toe kicking the fucking chair , I am so fucking pissed right now.
I'm taking a moment I'm taking a fucking moment... I know I can get this right
Please be careful with everything I hope you won't suffer.
And don't forget its no shame whatsoever if it won't happen now
 
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Reishi

Reishi

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
1,903
How do you feel about what you're about to do?
I'm just going to take PC sn again , I don't fucking care anymore... fuck protocol... I'm ok with puking my guts out if it means I die
 
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Deepdense

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I'm just going to take PC sn again , I don't fucking care anymore... fuck protocol... I'm ok with puking my guts out if it means I die
Are you really okay with dying like that? Seems messy and unpleasant.
 
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Reishi

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
1,903
Are you really okay with dying like that? Seems messy and unpleasant.
... if it means my existence stops .... then so be it
New plan ... I'm mixing kn with pc sn ... this is something I don't recommend anyone do.
 
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Terrible_Life

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Jul 3, 2025
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... if it means my existence stops .... then so be it
Are you alone? Would nobody interrupt you if you use sn?
Were you very nervous in the moments before your attempt? I understand you just wanna die its understandable you wanted this for a long time and its frustrating that now the hanging failed…I'd probably be very pissed off if on my suicide day it'd fail
 
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divinemistress36

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Peace on your journey <3
 
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Reishi

Reishi

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
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I'm going to wait a few hours to get everything sorted and fixed for when I take it... I need to think about where I want to die ... either in the bath tub so I don't leave a mess or comfortable in bed ...
 
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Terrible_Life

Mage
Jul 3, 2025
550
It isn't enough anymore
Be careful with the sn don't make a mistake ctb is something one should do correctly otherwise it'll led to horrible consequences. I hope you'll find freedom.
 
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Reishi

Reishi

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
1,903
Be careful with the sn don't make a mistake ctb is something one should do correctly otherwise it'll led to horrible consequences. I hope you'll find freedom.
At least with horrible consequences... people will finally notice me
 
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Terrible_Life

Mage
Jul 3, 2025
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At least with horrible consequences... people will finally notice me
I am so sorry that everything led to this point really this is evil and unfair you should have been able to enjoy your life but unfortunately darkness and suffering is here in this world but what is really sad is when this suffering and darkness comes to a good person who didn't do anything bad…
 
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A_Spartan_Dead

A_Spartan_Dead

Life's sick joke is us; death is the punchline.
Dec 17, 2025
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Wishing you the best Great Journey,
To a place beyond pain, fear and death,
Finding the rest and peace you seek,
Your bravery remembered. ❤️🕯️
 
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Reishi

Reishi

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
1,903
This will be my last post tonight.
If I fail I'll just try again tomorrow... I'm not giving up
 
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Riven

Riven

Member
Oct 24, 2025
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I'm sorry that life has led you down this path, but I hope you can find peace. You've been through so much and you deserve it. You'll always be remembered :heart:
 
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Reishi

Reishi

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
1,903
I'm having to postpone everything ... nothing seems to working because I'm drunk.

I'm going to try again on another day.
I'm not giving up ... but being that I broke a toe and I puked on the floor ... I think I need to reevaluate
Might look into getting a better source of sn or a opioid to overdose on...
 
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Deepdense

Deepdense

Student
Dec 30, 2025
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I'm having to postpone everything ... nothing seems to working because I'm drunk.

I'm going to try again on another day.
I'm not giving up ... but being that I broke a toe and I puked on the floor ... I think I need to reevaluate
Might look into getting a better source of sn or a opioid to overdose on...
At this point, dying is more of a hassle than living is.
 
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kuroshimi

kuroshimi

If you're not remembered, then you never existed.
Dec 1, 2025
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I'm having to postpone everything ... nothing seems to working because I'm drunk.

I'm going to try again on another day.
I'm not giving up ... but being that I broke a toe and I puked on the floor ... I think I need to reevaluate
Might look into getting a better source of sn or a opioid to overdose on...
Sorry that things didn't go as planned, hope you will eventually find peace.

It seems that hanging didn't go well?
 
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