Ctb thoughts all the time...

[Taran]

My mental health right now has thrown me into a locked up door with lost key..I really feel locked , anxious, scared, guilty, regret things, sad all day the only though I have have all day constantly is Ctb thoughts...I have recently fell into this situation where I have done everything to set back the things in right place but failed miserably...this increased my desire for ctb more...but the problem is I have many times almost gone for ctb and felt very anxious in the last moment and didn't go for it(ctb)...very anxious I can't describe in words about it...I'm 100%sure about ctb but in last moment my anxiety hits really hard don't know why....I want to overcome this feeling soon and successfully ctb very soon.

 

[ThisWorldIsPointless]

If ctb was easy i'm sure everyone on this website would do it right now. Reality is, that Ctb comes with thoughts of doubt and anxiety especially when you're an over thinker. Also there is limited methods that cause no suffering, so you have to plan this whole thing out. I feel you, because im also trying to overcome feelings and just do it. I really hate life and cant stand being alive.