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hoffnungstod

hoffnungstod

Student
Jan 3, 2021
122
My method is SN. I've fasted more than 7 hours so far. At 9:30 pm I'll start with the medication and finally take the SN at 10:30 pm.

Thank you so much for the conversations and your understanding. Really appreciate you guys.
 
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Gonjoolie

Student
Feb 5, 2021
137
I hope you find the peace you're looking for
 
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iwanttodie000

Student
Feb 15, 2021
199
Wishing you a peaceful journey
 
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aminend

aminend

Warlock
May 24, 2020
746
I hope u peaceful journey. Keep us updated
 
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WornOutLife

WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,183
I'm so sad to see you leave this world. You're really a nice person.

Gonna miss ya.

Wish u the best and eternal peace.

Infinite hugs,

Matt
 
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Throwmyselfaway

Not gone yet but soon
Jan 14, 2020
797
Wishing you a peaceful journey
 
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UseItOrLoseIt

Visionary
Dec 4, 2020
2,214
Godspeed on your journey my friend. May you find peace on the other side. Much love...
 
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Keto

Student
Feb 8, 2020
107
Hope you find peace you are looking for it. Safe journeys
 
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mirko

mirko

ah
Nov 19, 2020
232
I wish you a peaceful exit.
P.S. Hope you got a second dose in case you vomit :)
 
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hoffnungstod

hoffnungstod

Student
Jan 3, 2021
122
The first step (the Ibuprofen) is done.

It all still feels a little unreal.
 
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iwanttodie000

Student
Feb 15, 2021
199
The first step (the Ibuprofen) is done.

It all still feels a little unreal.
Reading these ctb threads as things evolve gives me insight as to how it will be when I ctb, it helps and gives courage - which you have a lot of. Love and peace on your journey my friend.
 
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Lady black

35 male, central Europe, German speaking
Oct 22, 2018
1,192
Good luck and a comfortable death
 
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hoffnungstod

hoffnungstod

Student
Jan 3, 2021
122
Just took the meto.

Btw I'm watching ASMR videos since I started medication. It's really helpful.
 
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grungeCat

Awkward & weird
Jul 5, 2020
1,109
I wish you safe travel.
 
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hoffnungstod

hoffnungstod

Student
Jan 3, 2021
122
And the antacid is done.

The last half hour before the SN.
 
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yive

yive

life is evil
Nov 6, 2020
695
good luck, brave soul
 
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whywere

Angelic
Jun 26, 2020
4,053
I wish you all the love and peace in this world and beyond. :heart::heart::hug::hug:
 
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untimelydemise

Member
Jan 20, 2021
62
i hope you find peace
 
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Mizuri

Mizuri

Member
Feb 8, 2021
55
It feels unreal reading these threads and knowing it's gonna be me there one day.

Peace to you, brave soul ❤️
Keep in touch.
 
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popcorn

popcorn

Experienced
Dec 20, 2020
298
i envy your courage and bravery my friend, i hope you find peace. but if you are the tiniest bit not sure there is always another day. ctb will always be there for when the time is right
 
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hoffnungstod

hoffnungstod

Student
Jan 3, 2021
122
Many thanks to all of you for your replies.


It's time now.
 
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roguetrader

Experienced
Feb 17, 2021
245
New member here that's going to go down the same path as you eventually. Hope everything works out for you!
 
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Philip

Specialist
Oct 23, 2018
319
Safe travels my friend
 
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amarillo

Member
Jan 30, 2021
76
I'm sorry it came to this but I hope this will give you peace.
 
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hoffnungstod

hoffnungstod

Student
Jan 3, 2021
122
thicky saltiness
 
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Okami

Student
Mar 16, 2018
134
I hope everything goes peacefully for you.
 
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watchingthewheels

Enlightened
Jan 23, 2021
1,415
Just took the meto.

Btw I'm watching ASMR videos since I started medication. It's really helpful.
I plan to use ASMR as well, when the time comes. (It's how I fall asleep at night, lately, and I imagine it as practice, to help me fall asleep peacefully and not wake up.)

Godspeed to you.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,389
Peeeeace...
 
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Aurora.

Aurora.

It looks peaceful up there.
Aug 1, 2020
19
All the best, good luck.
 
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