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iftheworldwasending

iftheworldwasending

My prayer is that when I die, all of hell rejoice.
Sep 26, 2020
131
was just wondering if anyone had any ideas on CTB while struggling with chronic anxiety and OCD? i purchased SN two times, threw it out both times because i had anxiety, now i'm regretting it. i don't want too much time to think about my decision. i know this IS a big decision, but i've already decided i want to go through with it, i just don't know how to get over the fear of doing it. i know there's a phrase on here, but i can't remember what it is.

any tips would be wonderful.
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lucacaro

lucacaro

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Dec 17, 2020
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Same. Tried yesterday to drink it and the anxiety got me so bad.
 
iftheworldwasending

iftheworldwasending

My prayer is that when I die, all of hell rejoice.
Sep 26, 2020
131
Same. Tried yesterday to drink it and the anxiety got me so bad.
that's my problem. and i have so many stomach issues, i'm just so afraid something would go wrong. i just wish there was a "simpler" way for us. <3
 
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EmbraceOfTheVoid

EmbraceOfTheVoid

Part Time NEET - Full Time Suicidal
Mar 29, 2020
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I'm pretty numb most of the time because of my trauma but even I experience the same biological fear of death as everyone else. The only thing that helps is reminding myself of all of the terrible things in my life and that I realistically have no future other than suffering unless I kill myself.
 
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Pookie

Pookie

Somebody you used to know.
Oct 18, 2020
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In Marilyn Monroe's day all we would have had to do is drink some alcohol and take barbiturates and die in our sleep. Nowadays you can barely OD on anything unless you're lucky. Drugs are designed to be much safer now.
 
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iftheworldwasending

iftheworldwasending

My prayer is that when I die, all of hell rejoice.
Sep 26, 2020
131
I'm pretty numb most of the time because of my trauma but even I experience the same biological fear of death as everyone else. The only thing that helps is reminding myself of all of the terrible things in my life and that I realistically have no future other than suffering unless I kill myself.
this was actually helpful, thank you.
In Marilyn Monroe's day all we would have had to do is drink some alcohol and take barbiturates and die in our sleep. Nowadays you can barely OD on anything unless you're lucky. Drugs are designed to be much safer now.
it's funny you say this, i just hung a marilyn piece up on my wall in my bathroom to remind myself of her and what she went through. she was much stronger than i am, sadly. i wish it was that easy to end it.
 
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EmbraceOfTheVoid

EmbraceOfTheVoid

Part Time NEET - Full Time Suicidal
Mar 29, 2020
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In Marilyn Monroe's day all we would have had to do is drink some alcohol and take barbiturates and die in our sleep. Nowadays you can barely OD on anything unless you're lucky. Drugs are designed to be much safer now.

"Safe" enough not to kill you, but not safe enough to avoid giving you debilitating symptoms; it's ironic in a way..
 
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lucacaro

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Dec 17, 2020
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I'm pretty numb most of the time because of my trauma but even I experience the same biological fear of death as everyone else. The only thing that helps is reminding myself of all of the terrible things in my life and that I realistically have no future other than suffering unless I kill myself.
Yeah honestly thinking those sorts of things are about what did it for me. I didn't drink SN but that was a confidence booster.
 

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