Ctb in 2020

[JohnUK]

Anyone know if 2020 will be the year you ctb. I certainly know it is the year I'll ctb. Hopefully not long in 2020 ill do my method.

 

[R_N]

Most likely.

 

[Tearygirl]

Planning to ctb in 2020 january. I hope so. I'm not sure because I'm a stupid coward and afraid to die.

 

[Despondent]

I don't think so for me :( I don't have the guts and am still full of slight hope. I can't see myself making it to 2024, that's for sure. Might be a while away but I don't see a future further than that tbh

 

[LMLN]

I think it will be. Not sure how to go on any further.

 

[Despondent]

Planning to ctb in 2020 january. I hope so. I'm not sure because I'm a stupid coward and afraid to die.

You're not a stupid coward. It's a fear of the unknown ❤ Know that many of us feel the same about ctb also, you're not alone :)

 

[6ixxy]

I think it will be. Not sure how to go on any further.

Feelings mutual, kinda hit a dead end now in regards to pretty much everything. Just patiently waiting..

 

[Freedom Believer]

Yeah. January 1st or 2nd at night. I'll be off work so I'll be able to do whatever I want for my final day. "Night-night" method is how I'm going. Some people struggle with it, but I can find the "sweet spot" no problem. I just worry about just passing out and not dying.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Probably. I can't take it anymore.

 

[Tearygirl]

You're not a stupid coward. It's a fear of the unknown ❤ Know that many of us feel the same about ctb also, you're not alone :)

Actually I am. I can't even cut myself because I'm afraid of knife. What an uselsss person I am. I'm not even sure I can ctb in 2020. I might postpone again and again.

 

[Despondent]

Actually I am. I can't even cut myself because I'm afraid of knife. What an uselsss person I am. I'm not even sure I can ctb in 2020. I might postpone again and again.

And that's okay ❤ I remember being scared of a knife also, but one night I was alone and my thoughts were really loud. I wasn't even thinking and I picked scissors up and started cutting. I have never zoned out and been more focused in such a long time. It almost felt numbing, but felt amazing. I probably won't ctb and will postpone if I ever were to make a ctb date. Just know that we're all here for you ❤ Even when I was cutting, I didn't use a knife. Probably never will.

 

[Numbtopain97]

Probably

 

[astro]

80% chance I would say.

 

[kiko]

If I cant get the money and the ball rolling in the early new year,then yes. There is no way im seeing another one of these unbearable years through again

 

[Farmmaa]

As soon as my package arrives.
I need a few more weeks to get everything done... but pending some sort of miracle, I can't pay my rent by Friday and just can't handle facing that stress once again

 

[HereToday]

100%. Not sure of the day yet, but my date of death will be January 2020

 

[cosmicpixiedust]

Maybe. We'll see. Things tend to get better but then get much worse for me, so it's likely. I think I'm done going to inpatient facilities though, they can't help. Regardless of the timeframe, I have a lot to do before I can ctb so it will be at least mid to late year.

 

[gambardella]

As soon as I receive the SN yes. So, probably January 2020.

 

[Emily123]

I know by 99%

 

[Jean4]

I don't think so for me :( I don't have the guts and am still full of slight hope. I can't see myself making it to 2024, that's for sure. Might be a while away but I don't see a future further than that tbh

Take one day at a time, and put one foot in front of the other.

 

[Flume]

Unless I fail then yeah it's time.

 

[Despondent]

Take one day at a time, and put one foot in front of the other.

You as well ❤

 

[Fly🦋]

I don't know the exact date but in October, or November 2020 i'll CTB, if i can even hang on for that long.
Hopefully by then I will have all the stuff for the SN method.

 

[konarti]

90% sure right now

 

[mediocre]

I really hope so. I just want the torment to end.

 

[Nogodallchaos]

I think I will ctb before this September. Had a nice last New Years Eve.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

I hope so. I feel so hopeless

 

[gabe]

In a couple of days.

 

[sooverallthingslife]

I'm pretty sure January 8th. Lots of shitty stuff on mind lately that might may make it a few days sooner but if not, that date fior sure. Can not wait to be free of this mental anguish!!

 

[Moonicide]

Yep. I'll be gone by January. I wanted to ctb on the 31st, but didn't have everything all set. I wanted to punch myself, I was just so very angry that I couldn't ctb. But knew in the end I have to wait it out until everything is set in place so I can be at peace with my exit. I'd rather exit gracefully than impulsively, so I'm here for a little bit longer.