CTB because im tired, nothing else... Can you save me?

[dandan]

Hi, I've had mental, emotional, financial issues since early teens....

I do have a job (but im afraid they will let me go, because im not the best... im not good enough... I can study and study... but life dedicated to work? is that life?)

I am self-sufficient at the moment...

but I live with social issues, I dont have friends, nor do I want to...

I have just grew tired of trying to live a good life, I grew tired of making attempts to better my life.... with no relieving results...

so I feel like ctb only because im tired of it all..... and sick of it all..... sick how do I have to live to work... and work to live.... it aint LIFE

I'm healthy though, I can say that, I dont suffer from migranes or some sort of physical illness of any kind, so I have to tresure that, that is a good thing....

but still..... is dying because im only tired of work, and why do I want to continue to live , if all I do is work?

yes I visit my mom once every two months.... I hardly have friends,,, nor do want too... im over it... damm...

yes.... money is the main problem at this moment.... If I had saved my Bitcoins I would be financially independent today... but im not... fuck that...................

Who thinks , that I can find a way to live??? and How? Maybe you can save me... changing my point of view... or

 

[Escaper Boy]

Considering that you mentioned of being tired, is it within a possibility for you to take a break or vacation from work? Maybe, it can refresh your perspective better.

 

[dandan]

actually no, either I work more and better, or I'll get fired... damm

 

[Soul]

It's not that unusual to have a job you don't love. Do you know what you would enjoy doing, if you could have any job you want? And is there a way you could do something like that as a volunteer every weekend or so? That could feel like a good break from your everyday issues, and it might lead you in good directions.

I'm sorry you feel so tired. I hope things - at least something - improves for you.

 

[dandan]

thanks I guess, but no... I would enjoy not working and taking my mom for a coffee, then having a visit from a girlfriend and some nice sex in my apartment....
but I lost my money and every chance of doing that...