
Polyxo
Member
- Mar 1, 2025
- 36
I'm very desperate to CTB. I know it's the best thing for me. But I cry thinking about it because I think about how, if only I had been better/smarter/more likeable, I would have really had a place here in this world. I would have been able to stand at the side of the people I care about. I would have been able to see the beauty in things that other people do. I only ever wanted to be like those people. But I'm not and I'm just sorry for not meeting their expectations.
I think when I'm able to think about CTB'ing without crying about it, that's when I'll know I'm truly ready to go thru with it.
I think when I'm able to think about CTB'ing without crying about it, that's when I'll know I'm truly ready to go thru with it.