Creepy uncomfortable feelings

[Cashewmilk]

Since I was a kid, I would randomly get these feelings of being very uncomfortable, and almost sick, like a creepy out of place feeling. It's hard to describe. I would have it especially when I was in the living room where my family was hanging out, I could never just relax and sit with them anymore, that feeling would creep up and I'd just leave and go to my room. I'm 32 now and I still get these feelings, I still live with my mom but I keep most of my life separated from her. I'm also on drugs and it's the only thing that makes me feel inner peace nowadays.

It's like a general feeling of discomfort, or being uncomfortable, sort of in a sexual way... like if a creepy person was hitting on you, that's sort of what it feels like, and you just want to get away. I don't remember being sexually abused though as a kid. I think I just hate my life so much. I told my mom once and she thinks it's anxiety. Maybe it's ptsd? I have a lot of that too. But as a kid the only real trauma I had was being forced to strict religious school as a toddler.

 

[FusRohDracarys]

Halfway into your first paragraph, my thought was "are they describing anxiety?" I'm inclined to agree with your mother's assessment. I didn't really know or understand what anxiety was until like 2 or 3 years ago, and then I realized I feel it quite often. It doesn't have to be from trauma. I think some people are just predisposed to anxiety. Have you ever looked up symptoms or descriptions of anxiety to compare how you relate?