It blows my mind in months to come I'll be dead… no traces of me left behind. I'll be free from this world, moving on to another place… a place that will hopefully be filled with less pain, less abuse, less… evil. I sit here and reflect on my life, realizing I was just used and discarded all of it. I was never ever truly loved, but I loved everyone. I'm happy I will be released from the flesh that is covering my soul; I'm happy I will evaporate from this cruel society. Suicide is self care… suicide IS self love for me because I will be emptying myself from a place where I tolerated so much mistreatment…. I will finally feel like I am a butterfly instead of just a stagnant caterpillar. I will finally grow my wings and be in a place where love and happiness will be true and not based on conditions… I just can't believe it will eventually happen! I'm not as nervous, not as fearful… I'm so thankful to have the option of dying in peace. Some may wonder why we choose a peaceful option and for me… I chose a peaceful method because my whole life, I've gone without peace. I deserve an exit that will be peaceful… we all do 
