gunmetalblue
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I've talked about this in chat before, but yeah, I know it would be better to be more accepting of my body the way it is, and that there are people who are into my "type", but just personally I want almost the exact opposite of what I am. Call it me being porn-brained or whatever, but for me the proportions/aesthetics matter (I was an artist, I guessIt might help to look into the concept of body neutrality (as opposed to body positivity). Basically just appreciate your body for what it does, the way it keeps you alive, its functions, etc, rather than trying to force yourself to love it or find it beautiful. It doesn't exist to be a decoration, it exists to serve you.
Regardless, being "fat" doesn't necessarily mean ugliness. Some of my exes were overweight and I was down catastrophic for them.
Hey @gunmetalblue!Afternoon counters
I did actually just for you, so you can't steal my data mwhaahahaHey @gunmetalblue!Why did you private your profile page? :( I want to steal your data, wtf /j
I knew it! I wasn't paranoid that everyone hates me for no reason!!!I did actually just for you, so you can't steal my data mwhaahaha
Actually no everyone loves and applauds your data stealing capabilities heheI knew it! I wasn't paranoid that everyone hates me for no reason!!!![]()
You're welcome. Argh we all have our moments don't we. Happy to know you're doing betterJK, thank you <3 I'm alright now, better than a few days ago when I had my regularly scheduled meltdown.
Thanks for asking; I did, but I didn't get to go, due to being incredibly sleep deprived and passing out before I could leave. At least it's extra free time, right...? I'll make up some bullshit reason for why I couldn't come today.How are you today @Arvayn ? Did you have work?
Well shit. How long since you last slept? I mean sure but you should use that free time to actually rest in that case. Hope you don't get trouble with work.Thanks for asking; I did, but I didn't get to go, due to being incredibly sleep deprived and passing out before I could leave. At least it's extra free time, right...? I'll make up some bullshit reason for why I couldn't come today.
I slept. I woke up a few hours ago.Well shit. How long since you last slept? I mean sure but you should use that free time to actually rest in that case. Hope you don't get trouble with work.
Well that's good.I slept. I woke up a few hours ago.
I'm getting the vibe that the work atmosphere might not be great? Do you even want to return to work?They put me on leave starting last November after I reported all my mental diagnoses to them, even though I didn't particularly want to; I was supposed to return starting today, but alas, unforeseen circumstances happen all the time.
Yes you transmit the insanely through the vampirism, makes sense. You definitely aren't a boring one heheTo be honest, I think they're actually glad I didn't come today. They thought I was some kind of mentally unstable maniac that will try to spread his insanity to others. Which, well... -true, I suppose.
It's not work; it's college. I am currently studying for a degree I have no interest in or plans to make use of. Indeed, the atmosphere is not great, as the people are rather tense with one another, but I am actually fairly well liked, and spited by some. I do want to return, in the sense that I'm looking to get it over with already so I can apply to vocational school for what I actually want to do.129,048
Well that's good.
I'm getting the vibe that the work atmosphere might not be great? Do you even want to return to work?
Yes you transmit the insanely through the vampirism, makes sense. You definitely aren't a boring one hehe