controlling religious mother doesnt want me to die because of her beliefs

[Hyperbunny]

can anyone relate
im living with her
and her controlling behaviour drove me mad in past aswell

 

[Intotheflames]

Put aside religious beliefs, I can relate to living with a controlling mother who drives me insane. I think regardless of religious beliefs, parents normally don't want their kids to die. Though mine told me to do so sometimes.

 

[Initiated]

My mother is also extremely religious. I told her that I want to die and I offered her to do it together but she wants to live. I told her that you and my sister are my responsibility so let me kill you both, but she refused. No I am forced to kill myself and deceive them.

 

[Noriv159]

My mother is also extremely religious. I told her that I want to die and I offered her to do it together but she wants to live. I told her that you and my sister are my responsibility so let me kill you both, but she refused. No I am forced to kill myself and deceive them.

Wow. I feel sorry for them.

 

[Initiated]

Wow. I feel sorry for them.

What else can I do? I am doomed already. Living has become like rape. I can't bear more insult.

 

[sadworld]

I'm sorry Honestly, it's your life, not hers. She brought you into this world, so it's your decision to leave. Religion is really sad in my opinion because it gives people a purpose in life which they normally don't have. It's pathetic if she wants to keep you alive just because of her stupid believs. Sending and . I'm sorry you have to deal with something like that!

 

[WhatDoesTheFoxSay?]

I can relate. For me it's my father.

When I was little he warned me that suicides end up in hell. Children who fail to 'Honour thy Father' would also end up in hell. Every moment he had with me was spent proselytizing his religious beliefs, and gaslighting me into thinking I'm obliged to reciprocate his providing for me. Every now and then he would jog my memory, reminding me of the happy moments we spent together, and insist that he has been a 'good and responsible father'. He has no reservations using emotional blackmail, and weaponizing his religion to keep us hostage.

 

[Hyperbunny]

Put aside religious beliefs, I can relate to living with a controlling mother who drives me insane. I think regardless of religious beliefs, parents normally don't want their kids to die. Though mine told me to do so sometimes.

yes most normal mums wouldnt want their adult children to die, but mine isnt the caring type. she is doing it more because she feels its her obligation to save me from the sin of suicide lol
because she knows full well living for me is extremely painful and a miserable sick existence

 

[Nymph]

I can't personally relate but I always feel sorry for ppl who are forced to grow up with strict religious parents/ppl. It's really horrible. Sorry you're going through this