Contradiction ™️

[Sleeper System]

The reason we want to die is the same reason we can't.

Fear of the pain of living. Fear of the pain of dying.

Both require will power. Both are hard to accomplish.

Gives even more credence to the phrase "Life is pain. "

Understatement of the century if you ask me.

If I could just get my hands on a .45 I'd muster the courage.

What would give you the courage to keep living?

What would give you the courage to finally ctb?

Just getting my hands on a fire arm would be enough to line everything up so I could finally escape this shell.

 

[woofwag]

To live: money. Genuinely, just money.

To die: I need no more courage for that now. Once I get back from this trip, it'll be over for me. I was born into this world screaming and crying, but I'll leave it disheartened, quietly, peacefully. The heart that doesn't beat cannot feel heavy.

 

[Hollowman]

I have the courage rn but I'm really trying to outlive my mom. My situation's so bad I'm about to have to move in with her and I'm in my 50s. I don't know how that's going to go. A big part of me wants to ctb before it happens.

 

[Forveleth]

I do not fear continuing to live, I just do not want to. To die, I am waiting for another day when I feel ready to go so I can minimize SI during my attempt. What will bring that feeling, I am not sure.