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- Sep 12, 2020
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Please tell me what's the point of living when you already feel like a ghost and nothing and no one is real.
Imagine even your pets feel like robots. Or your closed ones. It's not my face in the mirror. Those hands typing this don't feel like they belong to me. They look far away.
Everything feels like a dream.
This has been persisting for more than ten years and it's just getting worse. I'm disconnected from myself and my environment. I'm falling apart. I wonder if this can help overcoming survival instinct. There have been members with the same symptom (among others) who ctb which gives me hope catching it too. Some day.
The funny thing is that I probably broke my brain myself. But I don't want to get into detail.
Jeez.
A year ago I wouldn't have expected that my ideation would become so concrete and I would end up on a suicide forum.
Imagine even your pets feel like robots. Or your closed ones. It's not my face in the mirror. Those hands typing this don't feel like they belong to me. They look far away.
Everything feels like a dream.
This has been persisting for more than ten years and it's just getting worse. I'm disconnected from myself and my environment. I'm falling apart. I wonder if this can help overcoming survival instinct. There have been members with the same symptom (among others) who ctb which gives me hope catching it too. Some day.
The funny thing is that I probably broke my brain myself. But I don't want to get into detail.
Jeez.
A year ago I wouldn't have expected that my ideation would become so concrete and I would end up on a suicide forum.
