Confused emotions, feeling lost

[Life.Journey.Unknown]

I'm just feeling so lost and confused emotionally. My depression has been really bad recently.
I had been planning on getting things ready for ctb, thinking the thought of that will be a comfort. But I'm not ready to do it and I just felt so lonely and sad.

I want to get better. I don't know how. I don't know where to start.

 

[Faded_in_Dreams]

It's nice to hear you want to get better.
I've been thinking about my experience,
well, I have a broken car which is really old (18 years old to be exact) and has tons of problems,
So, most of the time that depression comes to me I grab my toolbox, head to the garage and try to fix something in it.
And dude you won't believe how enjoyable is repairing that car is (At least for me? ).
Have you tried something like this?

 

[Life.Journey.Unknown]

Yeah I've done a bit of work on my car in the past. Only little jobs though. I watched youtube vids beforehand so I don't balls it up! It does feel good to be able to do something yourself.
I struggle with motivation and enthusiasm. I suppose I could wash my car... that's quite therapeutic actually. First steps.