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Trisolaris

Trisolaris

Arcanist
Dec 11, 2018
447
Today I woke up feeling particularly bad and hopeless so I was determined to end it. Drove to my parents' place where they have a shed. I tried partial with a rope I bought in many different positions. Just couldn't lose consciousness or overpower SI. I have never felt so bad in my life, just completely trapped and depressed and hopeless. Complete torture.
 
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BabyYoda

BabyYoda

F*ck this sh!t I'm out
Dec 30, 2019
552
I feel trapped too. It seems there is no day when I don't feel severely anxious about experiencing emotional pain. Unfortunately this isn't a good time for me to CTB because of several factors. I even feel worse because I'm forcing myself to be more self-reliant when solving my own problems (which isn't easy at all). My last resort is the things I normally enjoy doing.
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,158
Partial suspension can be tough if not nearly impossible for some. So don't feel too bad about it. It could just mean too that it's not your time yet.

I hope you atleast start to feel even a tiny bit better and that life takes it easier on you.
 
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jgm63

Visionary
Oct 28, 2019
2,467
Personally, I thought this thread was quite interesting :
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/farewell-and-thank-you.27028/
I think it's a partial suspension type method. If you search on this site against the video id, it seems quite a few people have referenced that video.

Note : As always, please note that I strongly encourage you to seek help with whatever is troubling you. With the right help things can improve. There are many sources of help if you look and reach out. Please seek assistance in any and every way possible. You alone must decide upon your actions and take full responsibility for them, and you should always favour seeking help and keeping out of harm's way.
 
Trisolaris

Trisolaris

Arcanist
Dec 11, 2018
447
This seems pretty effective. Can anyone tell which collar is she using?
 
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jgm63

Visionary
Oct 28, 2019
2,467
Maybe trying searching on this site against the video id, it seems quite a few people have referenced that video. Perhaps there are some posts with more info.
 

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