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uklad38

Student
Mar 27, 2026
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I plan to ctb soon so this may not matter, but going back to one of my worst days when I attempted to ctb.

I attempted via helium tank with a bag over my head and a tube, I failed as I don't think the helium was pure but after sitting in my car for over an hour and my legs were so weak I couldn't drive home I rang an ambulance to get checked medically as I have issues due to sarcoidosis so wanted to ensure I wasn't going to get sick or worse in front of my partner that night and the attempt come to light.

Ambulance staff were so supportive and empathetic but when I got to the hospital I was in a waiting area with around 16 - 20 people.

The head nurse comes out and out of no where blurts out (well where did you get a helium tank anyway) in front of everyone.

I thought it was extremely inappropriate of her and I've been considering making a complaint ever since but keen to hear if I'm maybe over reacting?

She was also the one to sign me into involuntary care so I was send to psych and she made a comment that I obviously wanted help if I called the ambulance but in my eyes I just wanted to ensure I was physical ok before going home.

Appreciate any opinions if anyone has read this far
 
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fadedghost

fadedghost

Found SaSu after reading BBC & watching YouTube
Dec 10, 2025
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I plan to ctb soon so this may not matter, but going back to one of my worst days when I attempted to ctb.

I attempted via helium tank with a bag over my head and a tube, I failed as I don't think the helium was pure but after sitting in my car for over an hour and my legs were so weak I couldn't drive home I rang an ambulance to get checked medically as I have issues due to sarcoidosis so wanted to ensure I wasn't going to get sick or worse in front of my partner that night and the attempt come to light.

Ambulance staff were so supportive and empathetic but when I got to the hospital I was in a waiting area with around 16 - 20 people.

The head nurse comes out and out of no where blurts out (well where did you get a helium tank anyway) in front of everyone.

I thought it was extremely inappropriate of her and I've been considering making a complaint ever since but keen to hear if I'm maybe over reacting?

She was also the one to sign me into involuntary care so I was send to psych and she made a comment that I obviously wanted help if I called the ambulance but in my eyes I just wanted to ensure I was physical ok before going home.

Appreciate any opinions if anyone has read this far
i am not sure if you have a right to privacy where you are, but if you do, then telling a waiting area that you nearly offed yourself with helium may violate that

the comment is just a comment. she may have just meant physical help or was required under policy to sign you into involuntary care

she also may have been on a second shift

this honestly doesn't seem very bad to me.
 
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DeathSweetDeath

Enlightened
Nov 12, 2025
1,171
The attempt sounds like it failed because no research was put into it in any way. Not into the purity of the gas or the technique or other necessary materials, nothing, zero, zilch.

But that's behind you now.

It was insensitive of her and perhaps violated your legal right to privacy. Make a complaint if it's that important to you. However, like you said, in the grand scheme of things, it matters very little. The more you focus on it, the more you will feel the anger & aggravation that you felt on that day. What a way to waste your final days on earth! If I were you, I'd spend my last days thinking about better things than that.
 
softfur

softfur

sweet dreams my angel, at last goodbye
Mar 22, 2026
44
It's worth giving feedback about. It would benefit more than just you if staff respected patients' privacy. I've had a professional scold me for my scars in the front lobby, fuck that.
 

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