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CharcoalEnjoyer

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May 27, 2026
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Tried CO 2 times once was a failure due to improper sealing of the tent and the second actually filled the (sealed) room not the tent but I got scared and failed (hospitalized) . I didn't use any substance to try and ease the process as I thought I was somehow above the natural fear of death. For my third I've bought alcohol and weed and will not be using the tent. I keep CO detectors in places it might leak or the door where people might find me as to hopefully protect them or warn them. Hopefully going to sleep during the process will eliminate the fading feeling. Feel free to ask questions.
 

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iamtheiam

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May 29, 2026
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Years ago, I accidentally poisoned myself with carbon monoxide. It happened in a garden with a tiny cabin that had no heating. We lit about half a kilo of briquettes on a grill, and once they stopped burning, we brought the grill inside the cabin, to heat up the room. The door was slightly ajar, not sealed, and neither were the windows.
Within ten minutes, it was pleasantly warm inside—around 22 degrees—while it was freezing outside. I was sitting in a chair, drifting off to sleep. It wasn't unpleasant, and I didn't feel sick at all. I just felt tired, but in a nice way, like when you stretch out after a long day and comfortably fall asleep.
Then, a friend of mine dragged me out of the cabin. As he was pulling me out, I realized that the gas was lethal, but I just didn't care. I felt no anxiety, no fear of death whatsoever. If he hadn't dragged me out, I would have happily just sat there and kept on sleeping.
Only after getting outside did it start getting awful: a headache, nausea, weakness, and dark red fingertips. I felt nauseous for two days, and I'm pretty sure I lost a lot of brain cells in this experience.
 
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CharcoalEnjoyer

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May 27, 2026
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Can you describe the fading feeling you experienced?
I felt less sensitive or my grip strength weaken? My breathe shorten too it was noticable enough it got me overthinking, i stared to get a headache too pretty mild tho
How much charcoal did you use?
two medium starters full, when it burns down it reduces, like spinach!
Years ago, I accidentally poisoned myself with carbon monoxide. It happened in a garden with a tiny cabin that had no heating. We lit about half a kilo of briquettes on a grill, and once they stopped burning, we brought the grill inside the cabin, to heat up the room. The door was slightly ajar, not sealed, and neither were the windows.
Within ten minutes, it was pleasantly warm inside—around 22 degrees—while it was freezing outside. I was sitting in a chair, drifting off to sleep. It wasn't unpleasant, and I didn't feel sick at all. I just felt tired, but in a nice way, like when you stretch out after a long day and comfortably fall asleep.
Then, a friend of mine dragged me out of the cabin. As he was pulling me out, I realized that the gas was lethal, but I just didn't care. I felt no anxiety, no fear of death whatsoever. If he hadn't dragged me out, I would have happily just sat there and kept on sleeping.
Only after getting outside did it start getting awful: a headache, nausea, weakness, and dark red fingertips. I felt nauseous for two days, and I'm pretty sure I lost a lot of brain cells in this experience.
nicely written!
 
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SASU-KE

Anhedonic Elementalist
Nov 26, 2025
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Years ago, I accidentally poisoned myself with carbon monoxide. It happened in a garden with a tiny cabin that had no heating. We lit about half a kilo of briquettes on a grill, and once they stopped burning, we brought the grill inside the cabin, to heat up the room. The door was slightly ajar, not sealed, and neither were the windows.
Within ten minutes, it was pleasantly warm inside—around 22 degrees—while it was freezing outside. I was sitting in a chair, drifting off to sleep. It wasn't unpleasant, and I didn't feel sick at all. I just felt tired, but in a nice way, like when you stretch out after a long day and comfortably fall asleep.
Then, a friend of mine dragged me out of the cabin. As he was pulling me out, I realized that the gas was lethal, but I just didn't care. I felt no anxiety, no fear of death whatsoever. If he hadn't dragged me out, I would have happily just sat there and kept on sleeping.
Only after getting outside did it start getting awful: a headache, nausea, weakness, and dark red fingertips. I felt nauseous for two days, and I'm pretty sure I lost a lot of brain cells in this experience.
Damn, that just seems amazing. I mean, it sounds amazing. Not the part where you get nauseous, but the part where you were drifting off. Seems peaceful.

It's almost like a ton of people will kill themselves accidentally with carbon monoxide, but when they actually try to do it on purpose they fail.
 

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