
MrCasella
Student
- Feb 1, 2025
- 105
For me it was having thoughts of jumping from some high places sometimes I almost acted on some of these thoughts.
Many times I even had that when I was out with friends, having fun, or when I was about to leave, saying goodbye and giving them some kind of Truman-bow before I get flattened on a huge crossroad. Hm.I would never suicide in public, but I often have obsessive thoughts about it, jumping in front of the subway/cars is a classic for me.
I always see cars and think that I'm going to get hit Edmonton drivers are the absolute worst and hate pedestrians.I would never suicide in public, but I often have obsessive thoughts about it, jumping in front of the subway/cars is a classic for me.
the lighthouse looks beautiful from that stripI went to Beachy Head to jump - got too scared standing at the ledge and then sat down about a metre away. Someone came up and took a selfie of themselves at the ledge right next to me.
its not public in the sense of being in a public space but I think of streaming my suicide, which is a form of CTB in the publicFor me it was having thoughts of jumping from some high places sometimes I almost acted on some of these thoughts.
The thought occurs for me very frequently because I live beside a highway overpass and have to pass by it sometimes.Not too different from you. I used to cross a bridge back in university to get to class. The thought occurred to me pretty frequently.
I took 3 100 miligaram doctor prescribed sleeping pills I felt my heart slow down a little and I passed out for like a minute or two.In my 20s I tried to OD on OTC sleeping pills. I took them at a city park. The toxic shock caused severe hallucinations. I tried to walk back to a house I used to live at many years previously. I wandered the streets hiding in the shadows when I saw people. I thought I had become a ghost. I was found by the police sitting in a puddle, so I'm told. I don't remember that part. Apparently they thought I ODed on LSD.
I've had some people almost hit me as I am passing the road at the light they honk and I test myself by walking at the same speed throughout I think to myself I don't even care if I get hit anymore because it's not my fault unlike if I were to jump randomly out onto the road and try to get hit by incoming cars.Wasn't an actual attempt but one night I got so drunk I thought the whole world around me was an elaborate prank so kept running in front of traffic to show I wasn't falling for it.