Change of plans

[miguel6565]

Hello guys as i said yesterday i have my SN at home,now i feel like i am not ready to go,i feel very anxious and i think so much about i cannot let my family alone,i guess after all i am not ready to ctb but i am too scared and tired to live more,i just wanna dissapear,i will go on vacations whit my family so they can have a good memory whit me before i ctb,i am afraid of my brother he still a kid and my suicide will affect him forever but i just dont know if i should try to hold on more or let it go and ctb this year

i will update, hugs

 

[ThreeWords]

It's absolutely ok to feel the way you're feeling. Don't rush into any decisions, but let us know how it's going and you'll find support.