Catastrophising it is back

[mjlondon88]

Here I am again. I was gone for a couple of months. I'm back feeling worse than ever.
I catartrophise all the time. A person should not be wired like this. I cannot live like this. I want it all to end. This is not a life.

I worry all the time about money and ending up on the streets. I don't know why I do this. I have more money than most people more than I need. It's not enough to never have to work m, but I should be great full and happy. Instead I just worry. I would trade everything I had to be a normal functioning person that went to work and was happy and could keep working forever. I am just not wired like that.

I don't know what to do. I just wish I had a heart attack

 

[justwanttogo]

my therapist told me once a person who doesn't have to do work wont be happy as a reply to me wanting to win the lottery... maybe you could do some unpaid charity work that will give you a better feeling or something

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

Today I'm going to tell the story of jack Whittaker

Jack Whittaker (lottery winner) - Wikipedia

en.wikipedia.org

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are going through this. Living can be very painful as our thoughts can torture us and I am scared of things getting worse for me. One of the most horrible things about this life is that there is no limit as to how bad things can get and just the fact that things can get so awful is enough to make me want to leave. It must be so tiring and stressful being in that situation, and I know that it can be hard to carry on when you are suffering so much. Life scares me overall and I have so much dread for the future. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[mjlondon88]

I just want to end it all. I know my thoughts are insane. But I can't function like a normal person does. A person shouldn't live like this. It's not worth it.

 

[fox_wannabe]

I just want to end it all. I know my thoughts are insane. But I can't function like a normal person does. A person shouldn't live like this. It's not worth it.

I have same problem but I am in college. I am peculiar mix of ADHD, bipolar and cPTSD which make me catastrophize all the time as I have been through a lot of trauma in the past. I am fatigued most of the time and going through the day makes It feel like a enormous effort with suicidal thoughts and hatred of life starting at the alarm clock.

Sorry for venting here but I also don't know what to do except for cutting corners whenever I can and bearing it somehow.

 

[mjlondon88]

I have same problem but I am in college. I am peculiar mix of ADHD, bipolar and cPTSD which make me catastrophize all the time as I have been through a lot of trauma in the past. I am fatigued most of the time and going through the day makes It feel like a enormous effort with suicidal thoughts and hatred of life starting at the alarm clock.

Sorry for venting here but I also don't know what to do except for cutting corners whenever I can and bearing it somehow.

What do you cataztrophise about?

 

[fox_wannabe]

What do you cataztrophise about?

mostly collapse but now I just am more apathic than scared.

 

[outrider567]

Here I am again. I was gone for a couple of months. I'm back feeling worse than ever.
I catartrophise all the time. A person should not be wired like this. I cannot live like this. I want it all to end. This is not a life.

I worry all the time about money and ending up on the streets. I don't know why I do this. I have more money than most people more than I need. It's not enough to never have to work m, but I should be great full and happy. Instead I just worry. I would trade everything I had to be a normal functioning person that went to work and was happy and could keep working forever. I am just not wired like that.

I don't know what to do. I just wish I had a heart attack

Had many nightmares in the past that I'd wind up in the slummy places I resided in in my youth--No financial danger of that actually happening but those were some bad dreams

 

[mjlondon88]

Had many nightmares in the past that I'd wind up in the slummy places I resided in in my youth--No financial danger of that actually happening but those were some bad dreams

How did you stop?

 

[outrider567]

How did you ststop w

How did you stop?

stop? The bad dreams just ended as far as that subject goes--but plenty of other bad dreams still persist