Venting Can't wait anymore

[ssaaahmo]

I was going to kill myself the day my twin died but now I know I can't wait until then.
There's alcohol and knives and belts and saws and a lot of other stuff I can use. I know I'm being impulsive but since the gun is gone I'm desperate and I'm so ready to die and just fade away to nothingness forever. I don't care that people are going to "miss" me I don't care that they'll be "sad" I don't care that this is "selfish" according to my mother I DON'T CARE AND I JUST WANT TO DIE BECAUSE DYING SOUNDS LIKE THE ONLY REAL FUN THING LEFT
I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE
Maybe in my note I can make a joke about seesaws if I cut my carotid artery with a saw or maybe that's too fucked up I don't know anymore
Maybe I shouldn't even leave a note they're never good enough anyway
Who knows things might be over soon
We'll see

 

[rhiino]

In my mind the only selfish thing is to stop somebody who wants to end his suffering from doing so because of your own interests.

 

[ssaaahmo]

In my mind the only selfish thing is to stop somebody who wants to end his suffering from doing so because of your own interests.

i think this a lot too
thank you for understanding