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Ednospatient

Arcanist
Sep 2, 2021
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I physically can't stop vomiting and it's the main reason why I want to CTB. It happens daily. I can barely eat anything because of it. My life is unbearable and literal hell. I got an eating disorder diagnosis in June 2020 and it's been almost non stop since then, albeit there was an 8 month period when I didn't throw up at all. The good thing is I might get an amitriptyline prescription so I can finally OD.
 
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KimKevorkian

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Feb 23, 2022
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My god. How horrible. This sounds more physiological than a psychological thing like an eating disorder. Have you been scoped out, received an endoscopy? Have they checked your gut's microbiome?
 
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Ednospatient

Arcanist
Sep 2, 2021
408
My god. How horrible. This sounds more physiological than a psychological thing like an eating disorder. Have you been scoped out, received an endoscopy? Have they checked your gut's microbiome?
They performed an endoscopy on me but found nothing wrong
 
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KimKevorkian

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Feb 23, 2022
210
My god. How horrible. This sounds more physiological than a psychological thing like an eating disorder. Have you been scoped out, received an endoscopy? Have they checked your gut's microbiome?
I really hope that labs can be ordered that make some sense of what's going on, whether it's a parasite or some other organism. I've said elsewhere I've been reading about of evolutionary biology written for the laid pubic..er...lay public, and it's just so damn amazing how much we are comprised of retroviruses and creepy crawlies. Egads.
They performed an endoscopy on me but found nothing wrong
What did they speculate? Clearly something is going on. Heavy metal toxicity? Do you take any sort of supplements, herbals? Be careful. They're unregulated and often totally different ingredients are in those bottles.
 
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Gsvko

Mea culpa.
Dec 14, 2021
189
Sounds horrible
Nutritional shakes have helped me transition, dk if you've tried them. I took ensure
 
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Rational man

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Oct 19, 2021
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Many people are suffering with physical conditions too that puts into question, the qualify of life. Not all conditions can be diagnosed because of the rarity or perhaps doctors not really investigating sufficiently. Im the same, following covid vax. I vomit and abdominal pain every day. NHS brush me off now. Ive lost so much weight that life has become intolerable. Drs simply talk from a set script. I feel your pain , i really do.
 
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Apr 19, 2020
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Have they given you any anti emetics? There are several kinds, so if one doesn't work, try another. What is the eating disorder you're diagnosed with?

Have you tried cutting things out of your diet, been tested for coeliac, been tested for parasites?

Problems with the gallbladder can cause chronic nausea.
 
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KimKevorkian

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Feb 23, 2022
210
Have they given you any anti emetics? There are several kinds, so if one doesn't work, try another. What is the eating disorder you're diagnosed with?

Have you tried cutting things out of your diet, been tested for coeliac, been tested for parasites?

Problems with the gallbladder can cause chronic nausea.
Great points. Celiac, yes. Gallbladder too. I bring up heavy metals b/c a significant amt of cadmium, lead, arsenic can be found in even protein powders, (hell, it's advised to cut back on brown rice, as one cd get too much naturally occurring arsenic. Oiy vey.) not to mention much seafood. Safest are wild caught salmon, flounder, anchovies (the last I can't bring myself to eat). Do you drink energy drinks? Dangerous. Just spitballin'.
 
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Bleunoir

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Feb 4, 2020
31
This sounds like a rumination syndrome to me. I can be helped with learning specific diaphragm breathing techniques that help you keep your food Dow. There's def a way out of it. Have you seen a specialist ?
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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That sounds really awful what you are going through. I am sorry that you have to experience this. I wish you the best in whatever happens.
 
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corvoscuro

Member
Feb 24, 2022
43
I understand very well wanting to CTB for health reasons, that's also the reason why I want to ctb. Life is literally unbearable.I pray to die in my sleep or by heart attack every day. I hope the best for you.
 

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