Discussion Can't make rational decisions when depressed

[sulk]

Does anyone else feel this way too? I'm willing to risk anything nowadays. I know I'm harming myself but I dont care. I have the survival instincts of a fly but I don't give a fuck anymore I just want to ctb. It's so fucking hard to find an accessible method and I feel so stuck. I'm willing to do ANYTHING to DIE. I don't want to get better anymore, I don't see the point. I don't see a 'future' in me. Not with everything going on in this world.

Sorry for complaining, just looking for people who can relate.

 

[spiders.in.my.head]

whenever i get back into a depressive spiral, all rational thought goes out the window.
after the worst has passed, im left looking back and wondering what the fuck i was thinking. (spoiler alert, i wasnt thinking at all)

 

[rigsid]

I feel the same way. Problem is im this depressive 99 percent of the time.

 

[doomedbynarrative]

It makes sense. Depression is an illness with symptoms. Any other illness with symptoms and people wouldn't be surprised at the lack of ability to make rational decisions.

 

[tiokapaws]

whenever i get back into a depressive spiral, all rational thought goes out the window.
after the worst has passed, im left looking back and wondering what the fuck i was thinking. (spoiler alert, i wasnt thinking at all)

LITERALLY !! its like im in a trance. And then I wake up out of it and look back at all the actions ive done and the thoughts I had as if they were made by a stranger.

 

[Hollowman]

It's about the only thing keeping me alive. If I could think clearly I'd immediately kill myself.