Help can't find carotids

[inandoutoflove]

failed attempt June 5th and landed in the closed ward, got transferred to a different ward shortly thereafter. now, they are going to release me in 2 weeks after making my life worse than it already was. I'm settled on fucking killing myself, I'm so sick of this bullshit life.

I can't find my stupid carotid arteries, no matter where I press it's always jugulars. even when I strangled myself through partial hanging with a slip knot, I never passed out, only felt intense pressure in my head. even with 1.7 per mille blood alcohol level, registering almost nothing, it was unbearable.

What the fuck do I do? I can't find them by pressing into my throat as far and hard as I can, and ropes don't do shit.

being alive is the worst experience imaginable.

 

[inandoutoflove]

please help me

 

[LastDayOnEarth]

Its hard indeed, even tho ive managed to get close to passing out when testing partial, I cant quite find the charotids themselves

 

[LongJacks]

Idk if this will help but... I did saw that for partial putting the rope around the base of the neck is best (Below the adam's apple)
https://en.farewellwiki.org/ This wiki has a good guide for this and it has pictures for the carotids (Sorry if I mispelled it English isn't my mother tongue)