Can’t deal with paranoia and not knowing

[lonleycrowdedwest]

I can't deal with paranoia anymore. I think my best friend has shut me out of his life and him and his girlfriend have broken up. It seems like this and everyone else in our friend group knows but they won't tell me for some reason. I want to die so badly I can't deal with the feelings it's fucking agonizing.

 

[onleana]

im sorry you are suffering so much. sending you lots of hugs friend.

 

[DisillusionedDragon]

I don't have any personal experience with paranoia, but maybe it could be helpful to find someone who does? And of course people in the mental health field could potentially also be able to help, but yeah, some of them are also just utterly incompetent. But yeah, maybe asking someone who has some experience with paranoia for advice could be a good place to start.

Anyway, I'm sorry you're suffering, I hope you can find some release soon.

 

[Onthe29th]

Take a deep breath. Have you ask your best friend if you've been shut out?

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you are going through this. I know that it can be hard to carry on when you are suffering so much and cannot take anymore. Living is very painful. I wish you the best.

 

[lonleycrowdedwest]

Take a deep breath. Have you ask your best friend if you've been shut out?

I have and he keeps saying no but theres just too many coincidences for that to be true. I havent asked him in a while because I knew I was being weird so ive stopped.

I don't have any personal experience with paranoia, but maybe it could be helpful to find someone who does? And of course people in the mental health field could potentially also be able to help, but yeah, some of them are also just utterly incompetent. But yeah, maybe asking someone who has some experience with paranoia for advice could be a good place to start.

Anyway, I'm sorry you're suffering, I hope you can find some release soon.

I'm just so afraid that if I am being lied to by my friends and I am right that it will be so pathetic and embarrassing to seek mental health treatment if they are lying to me. It would be just the worst if that were true. I have been to an online sergice and am medicated, but its not comprehensive mental healthcare.

 

[Onthe29th]

I know how you feel because I get paranoid a lot too but I realize that sometimes the behaviors have nothing to do with us. He did just go through a breakup so more then likely, that's what's going on. Give him a decent amount of time.

 

[lonleycrowdedwest]

I know how you feel because I get paranoid a lot too but I realize that sometimes the behaviors have nothing to do with us. He did just go through a breakup so more then likely, that's what's going on. Give him a decent amount of time.

the thing is hes saying he didnt. But there are so maby peices of information that dont add to that story. Both of them deleted all the pictures of eachother from instagram the same day, and his gf has been constantly calling this other friend who has tried to get with her twice in the past. I even said if it's something you want to keep private you dont have to tell me I just want to know that I'm not crazy and he said nothings going on.

 

[DisillusionedDragon]

I'm just so afraid that if I am being lied to by my friends and I am right that it will be so pathetic and embarrassing to seek mental health treatment if they are lying to me. It would be just the worst if that were true. I have been to an online sergice and am medicated, but its not comprehensive mental healthcare.

I totally get that. Then maybe just finding someone to talk to about the general situation and your feelings could help a little? And finding some way to be able to deal with your feelings? Figuring out where they're coming from maybe?

 

[lonleycrowdedwest]

I totally get that. Then maybe just finding someone to talk to about the general situation and your feelings could help a little? And finding some way to be able to deal with your feelings? Figuring out where they're coming from maybe?

I've talked and it doesn't really help. It's ducked because I want to lull myself but if I'm wrong and I've asked him a few times about it I really don't want him to blame himself. Even if I was right he shouldn't blame himself.

I've talked and it doesn't really help. It's ducked because I want to lull myself but if I'm wrong and I've asked him a few times about it I really don't want him to blame himself. Even if I was right he shouldn't blame himself.

Kill* not lull