Help can i tell this to my therapist or not?

[sharpiemarker]

Lately my suicidal urges got a little bit lesser so I'm feeling kinda better. I think it might be because of my medication, but whatever a win is a win. I'm still not completely satisfied with life, I'm still kinda miserable, but I just decided to live in a limbo for now. I can kill myself whenever I want. Anyways I think about telling my therapist how bad it really was, I'm fucking tired of lying and I'm tired of downplaying my problems constantly to him. I almost killed myself in the beggining of october, I remember firmly how I held a blade to my arm but I decided not to in the end. Then I thought about doing it again with hanging but I just never got as close. I would like to clarify in the session that now I'm better and it was like two-three weeks ago. I wonder if you guys think this is safe to say? I wouldn't like to get admitted, but again if I say I'm not suicidal anymore and I feel better I think there is no need to admit me, because there is no danger to my life anymore. I'm really tired of lying .....

 

[Sutter]

Action or no action, always a consequence. If you are done with lieing and it is what you want then stop. Your therapist may consider it a break through, it may validate their choice of medication, perhaps it may help others. On the other hand the therapist may feel they were not astute enough and realize the danger to their objective and request you enter a ward.

You have more than valid concerns to me, however, it looks like lieing is what you really dont want to live with. If that is the case then stop for you. If it does go badly, well, nothing stops a dedicated soul its just more time.

Best of peace to you and the path you choose.

 

[Unspoken7612]

Yes, you can probably safely tell your therapist that. Two-three weeks isn't that long really, but if you don't have any current plans and are confident that you can keep yourself safe then you're very unlikely to be committed to a ward.

 

[TAW122]

In general, there is always a risk to whatever you share (especially if it involves death, suicide, even if active or not) as all a therapist (or any mental health professional) has to do is to believe that there is a danger to oneself or others (whether it is proven true, founded, or not), then your therapist may take action. Of course, not all mental health professionals are like that and it only takes one (or a few) bad apples to spoil the whole batch. In the end, only you would know what is best, but keep in mind there is always that 'risk' of being incarcerated or having unwanted intervention or consequences when you divulge said information.

Personally, if it were I, I would never put my time, money, or energy into therapy (for reasons I've mentioned before and that's another thread altogether), but that's just speaking for myself.

 

[maniac116]

Firstly, I'm glad you're feeling better. Congrats!!!
Personally, I don't think I would tell my therapist. Once it's out in the open there are consequences & you can't take what you said back.
Just my 2 cents...

 

[-Link-]

If you genuinely know and believe yourself to no longer be acutely suicidal, then you will likely be able to get through this conversation without being held for evaluation.

That's the best I can give you -- "likely" -- because this will depend on the therapist as well as what kind of connection you have with them.

I think the better quality the therapist, the more likely they would be to be able to hear this without feeling compelled to act on it.

Regardless, I would encourage you to go with the straight truth in this conversation because it sounds like you need to unburden yourself from this. If this results in you being held for evaluation, just demonstrate a willingness to accept help, indicate an open-mindedness in hearing them out, and comply as best you can.

if I say I'm not suicidal anymore and I feel better I think there is no need to admit me, because there is no danger to my life anymore. I'm really tired of lying .....

That would be quite a leap to go from "I came close to attempting suicide" or "I'm not suicidal anymore" to "I feel better."

If you tell the therapist you "feel better," you're probably going to want to qualify that by adding something like "...than I was at the time."

 

[depthss]

i think youd be fine to just tell him, as long as you say its not as bad anymore. ive told my therapist about being suicidal, and nothing really happened, i didnt get sectioned or anything, if thats what youre worried about. i think you should be honest, it might be nice to talk to him about it now

 

[theneverending]

I feel as long as you make sure to specify that you are no longer feeling like that, you can tell them. They cannot do anything if it was in the past, so as long as you reiterate that you no longer feel suicidal. It may cause some hardships in conversation with your therapist, but that's to be expected. I wish you luck on either path you may choose, my friend.

 

[metothemoon]

I would tell him. In my experience therapists are not really fond of admitting you to a ward. They first always try to find another way to get you through the week.
You should never downplay your problems, you deserve to be heard and helped!

 

[wren-briar]

Short answer: Regardless of your improvement, regardless of desire to be honest, and regardless of the fact that therapy should[1] have better outcomes if you were able to be honest, I strongly recommend not telling your therapist.

Long answer: read https://wrenbriar.gitlab.io


[1]: In an ideal world, being honesty absolutely should result in better outcomes; but we're living proof that we definitely do not live in an ideal world.