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First loss

First loss

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Jan 28, 2019
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Fuck this idea of forgiving them and going in peace, wheter I blow my brains out or I poison myself I want to make it known that it was mostly because their psychological abuse that fucked me up. I was thinking writing a letter to some institutions and sending it just before I ctb or something.

Any advice?
 
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hey, sorry about what you're going through. psychological abuse, whether it's from loved ones or those you least expect it to come from is heartbreak.

its tough to say. i can't speak on holding grudges, i've had a couple people really close to me this past year destroy me, yet i forgave them.

whether it's through writing a note and publishing it, or just saying screw it; i've had enough of this abuse, frick this, and having you're voice heard and just speaking out about what they've made you go through and through that maybe just like moving away and starting fresh. you don't deserve the negative environment you're in, no one does. but you're voice 100 percent matters, and it's hard to use it sometimes; but we really only live once, we're already suffering enough, there isn't harm in speaking out and against people hurting you mentally or physically.

if you're 100 percent committed on ctbing, i'd do a note. not necessarily directly to institutions persay, but social media. get the attention of those around you.

but what i'd do is face them, and speak up and use my voice; depict my pain and suffering and what i've endured because of them through my voice, my words. show them what they've done, first hand instead of some note. and maybe if you do feel some relief in getting all of what's built up inside of you out, getting the hell out of that environment and perhaps giving it another chance away from what's stopped you from ever giving life a chance.
 
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Blackjack

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Fuck this idea of forgiving them and going in peace, wheter I blow my brains out or I poison myself I want to make it known that it was mostly because their psychological abuse that fucked me up. I was thinking writing a letter to some institutions and sending it just before I ctb or something.

Any advice?

If your goal is to have your parents held legally liable for abusing you, you'd have to first involve law enforcement to get that legal ball rolling. If your goal is to out or shame them publicly, social media would be the quickest & most efficient way to do that. I'm sorry your parents fucked you up.
 
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First loss

First loss

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Jan 28, 2019
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hey, sorry about what you're going through. psychological abuse, whether it's from loved ones or those you least expect it to come from is heartbreak.

its tough to say. i can't speak on holding grudges, i've had a couple people really close to me this past year destroy me, yet i forgave them.

whether it's through writing a note and publishing it, or just saying screw it; i've had enough of this abuse, frick this, and having you're voice heard and just speaking out about what they've made you go through and through that maybe just like moving away and starting fresh. you don't deserve the negative environment you're in, no one does. but you're voice 100 percent matters, and it's hard to use it sometimes; but we really only live once, we're already suffering enough, there isn't harm in speaking out and against people hurting you mentally or physically.

if you're 100 percent committed on ctbing, i'd do a note. not necessarily directly to institutions persay, but social media. get the attention of those around you.

but what i'd do is face them, and speak up and use my voice; depict my pain and suffering and what i've endured because of them through my voice, my words. show them what they've done, first hand instead of some note. and maybe if you do feel some relief in getting all of what's built up inside of you out, getting the hell out of that environment and perhaps giving it another chance away from what's stopped you from ever giving life a chance.
I was planning on moving out and joining the army but I really lack the will to live and fight anymore.

If your goal is to have your parents held legally liable for abusing you, you'd have to first involve law enforcement to get that legal ball rolling. If your goal is to out or shame them publicly, social media would be the quickest & most efficient way to do that. I'm sorry your parents fucked you up.
The problem is that my family is one of the better known and respected families in this small town, and law enforcement is corrupt as fuck and if I reported them it would come out as nothing.
 
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I was planning on moving out and joining the army but I really lack the will to live and fight anymore.


The problem is that my family is one of the better known and respected families in this small town, and law enforcement is corrupt as fuck and if I reported them it would come out as nothing.
jesus, that's awful. like thats terrible luck, cause like theres only so much you can do. i wonder and really do hope there's someone who's genuine and has the power to help in that town. not everyones as bad as the person beside them.

have you ever thought of moving away from you're family and such a negative environment? oh i see, the military isn't a bad idea. Literally ANYTHING that gets you away from such a negative environment is beneficial.

the problem as you mentioned is fighting the motivation and fight to wanna do such a thing. cause of course, it takes time, work. why not just say screw it and die, you know? i find the same lack of motivation and will such as yourself for things in life right now, including school and/or trying to get better and get my social life back.

it helps doing things you wanna do, that you've wanted to do in the past. Perhaps going to parts of the places in the world and/or traveling, pursuing hobbies and careers? doing things you think you wanna do AND HAVE WANTED TO DO when you were younger can help pave a way for motivation and the will to move.
 
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Blackjack

Blackjack

I’ll be watching...
Aug 6, 2019
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I was planning on moving out and joining the army but I really lack the will to live and fight anymore.


The problem is that my family is one of the better known and respected families in this small town, and law enforcement is corrupt as fuck and if I reported them it would come out as nothing.

Then putting them on social media blast & public shaming them would be the most damaging thing you could do to people who are well regarded in their community.
 
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