deerme
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- Feb 8, 2021
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if i dont chicken out im doing it by the end of the hour. im hanging myself. ive cut my thigh and arm up. i just dont know what to do anymore. it's all too much to handle. it always has been and im fucking tired of it
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You don't have to blame yourself. I wish you would be fine now. Probably It will be better for you to take some rests or sleep for a while.i cant fucking do it. im so disappointed in myself. i kept easing into it. and i kept getting scared. im so tired i just want to die already. i just want to be able to take that final step and not be able to go back.
does anyone know ways i can make sure i follow through. ways to overcome that fear?i cant fucking do it. im so disappointed in myself. i kept easing into it. and i kept getting scared. im so tired i just want to die already. i just want to be able to take that final step and not be able to go back.
I'm so sorry, I know how painful & overwhelming it is to not go through with an attempt when you want to. You must be going through many emotions right now, but please try not to feel too bad about it. It is incredibly difficult to hang yourself - ending your own life in general is a very scary thing to do, and SI makes that even worse. It is so frustrating, to want to die yet not be able to, so I have no doubt you're feeling very overwhelmed right now. Try to take a few deep breathes and calm yourself a little bit, if you're able to, or maybe try to get some sleep. I know it'll be tough, but I'm sure the last thing you need right now is to be left to deal with all of these emotions. I'm sending you so many warm hugs right now, and if you need somebody to talk with, you're always more than welcome to message me.i cant fucking do it. im so disappointed in myself. i kept easing into it. and i kept getting scared. im so tired i just want to die already. i just want to be able to take that final step and not be able to go back.
does anyone know ways i can make sure i follow through. ways to overcome that fear?
Hi precious moss, hanging is not an easy thing to do. I'm curious why you chose this way?does anyone know ways i can make sure i follow through. ways to overcome that fear?
Hanging has to be one of the most difficult ways to go out. Standing on the edge and knowing you'll dangle around and risk brain damage if the rope breaks or something else goes wrong is hard to get over. It's understandable. I can't do it either.i cant fucking do it. im so disappointed in myself. i kept easing into it. and i kept getting scared. im so tired i just want to die already. i just want to be able to take that final step and not be able to go back.
It doesn't sound like it's your time @moss don't do anything spontaneous which could go wrong and end you up in a worse situation. Try to relax and chill for a bit. Make a cup of tea or somethingif i dont chicken out im doing it by the end of the hour. im hanging myself. ive cut my thigh and arm up. i just dont know what to do anymore. it's all too much to handle. it always has been and im fucking tired of it
You have all of our support. You are loved!morning all. i really appreciate all the love and support <3 im feeling slightly better.
So pleased to read you're feeling a bit better. Sending hugs your waymorning all. i really appreciate all the love and support <3 im feeling slightly better.