Broke the seals, i guess this is it

[Deleted member 10090]

Thank you everyone for making me feel welcome here. Just broke the seals on my N.
Taking meto now.

edit: backed out fuck my life

 

[supermario]

Best of luck. I hope you find peace.

 

[miserableforever]

Always makes my heart heavy but also happy for the other person. All the best

 

[Grumpy Bear]

Best of luck. May the void welcome you.

 

[Dot]

how long did u fast and did you eat anything just now?

Nt th rght tme 2 b askng.

 

[motel rooms]

Good luck... Please remember that no one will think any less of you if you change your mind

 

[LoveAndMonsters]

I hope you find some peace.

 

[Dystopia]

Sorry to see you go bed. I'll miss you a lot

 

[watereyes]

lots of love.

 

[OnlyTheWind]

Goodbye, friend. You deserve to be free!

 

[HelloAllYouPeople]

Best of luck and safe travels!

 

[Deleted member 10090]

couldn't go through with it, i hate myself so much and now the seals are broken

 

[Flying Away]

couldn't go through with it, i hate myself so much and now the seals are broken

No shame in that. Rest up

 

[Death is beautiful]

couldn't go through with it, i hate myself so much and now the seals are broken

You couldn't drink it?

 

[setup]

Thank you everyone for making me feel welcome here. Just broke the seals on my N.
Taking meto now.

edit: backed out fuck my life

No way!!! Beeeed!!!!!!!!!

If your not here, I just want to say it was great talking to u and hope everything is how u like it. See u on the other side

Good luck... Please remember that no one will think any less of you if you change your mind

Same dude!

couldn't go through with it, i hate myself so much and now the seals are broken

All g my dude. Just seran wrap and rubber band it. Or get a rubber stopper. Glad ur still here. U were one of the first people to talk to me here

 

[canna2]

No way!!! Beeeed!!!!!!!!!

If your not here, I just want to say it was great talking to u and hope everything is how u like it. See u on the other side

Same dude!

All g my dude. Just seran wrap and rubber band it. Or get a rubber stopper. Glad ur still here. U were one of the first people to talk to me here

He's alive dude

 

[Circles]

Hey. Sorry for what's going on. I just looked up in the search to see if N goes bad after breaking the seal and saw this thread. Here's a post from @Mud.:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...-and-is-not-that-bad.34604/page-3#post-676259

"Dr. PN from the PPH answered that question in a podcast once. I can't find it anymore (he removes podcasts sometimes) but he said N. remains lethal after breaking the seal for about a month if you put it in the fridge as soon as possible.

Taking a sample through the rubber with a needle is fine. That won't break the vaccuum.

N. will remain lethal for about 2/3 years after expire date if you keep the bottle sealed in a cool, dark place."

Since N isn't my method I could be I'm wrong about this so if anyone knows them correct me. I'll try to see if anything else pops up.

Edit: here's another thread albeit old and though it doesn't explain if breaking the seal will affect the N but someone posted a wikibooks file on the shelf life.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/breaking-the-seal.9682/

If anyone knows anything about N please help.

Edit2: found another thread but the last post says that refrigeration is NOT required but doesn't specify if that's for both unopened N and opened N.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/issues-with-storing-n.15301/#post-296504

I'm getting a lot of conflicting information from what I'm reading so again if anyone knows please help.

Edit3: Here's a recent thread and someone posted that opened N can last up to 30 days but I didn't read enough to see about storing in a fridge.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/so-i-got-my-n.77154/

Edit4: Saw this thread and this post by @greyhound. Post #137

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/goodbye-and-thank-you-ss-method-n.71693/page-5#post-1303829

"I think there is a lot of misinformation about N shelf life once opened on here. It mainly stems from the vet N being injectable and this is what the 1 month shelf life comes from. After that it may not be sterile enough to inject so they recommend vets open a new bottle. For drinking the sterility doesn't matter. I don't know exactly how long it would take to degrade from exposure to oxygen, but certainly a while since they used to sell liquid N as a sedative to be drunk back in the day. I'm sure it would probably be fine for a few months at least."

Well given the misinformation and mixed opinions about opened N I'll just stop. I'm sorry if none of this helps.

 

[miserableforever]

In that case, Welcome back!

 

[setup]

Hey. Sorry for what's going on. I just looked up in the search to see if N goes bad after breaking the seal and saw this thread. Here's a post from @Mud.:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...-and-is-not-that-bad.34604/page-3#post-676259

Since N isn't my method I could be I'm wrong about this so if anyone knows them correct me. I'll try to see if anything else pops up.

Edit: here's another thread albeit old and though it doesn't explain if breaking the seal will affect the N but someone posted a wikibooks file on the shelf life.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/breaking-the-seal.9682/

If anyone knows anything about N please help.

Edit2: found another thread but the last post says that refrigeration is NOT required but doesn't specify if that's for both unopened N and opened N.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/issues-with-storing-n.15301/#post-296504

I'm getting a lot of conflicting information from what I'm reading so again if anyone knows please help.

Edit3: Here's a recent thread and someone posted that opened N can last up to 30 days but I didn't read enough to see about storing in a fridge.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/so-i-got-my-n.77154/

Edit4: Saw this thread and this post by @greyhound. Post #137

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/goodbye-and-thank-you-ss-method-n.71693/page-5#post-1303829

"I think there is a lot of misinformation about N shelf life once opened on here. It mainly stems from the vet N being injectable and this is what the 1 month shelf life comes from. After that it may not be sterile enough to inject so they recommend vets open a new bottle. For drinking the sterility doesn't matter. I don't know exactly how long it would take to degrade from exposure to oxygen, but certainly a while since they used to sell liquid N as a sedative to be drunk back in the day. I'm sure it would probably be fine for a few months at least."

Well given the misinformation and mixed opinions about opened N I'll just stop. I'm sorry if none of this helps.

Thanks for ur research. I may have to agree with ur assessment that it's due to the sterility to inject they rec 30 days and the fridge. Unless there is info on the chemical degradation through heat or oxidizing, I think it will be ok for a little while.

 

[FuneralCry]

Of course suicide is very difficult as we are programmed to survive after all. I'm sorry that things did not go the way you wanted them to, but of course there is no rush. The option to ctb is there no matter what for if/when the time is right. Whatever happens, I wish you the best.

 

[Darkover]

i wish i was in your position i'd of drank it without to much difficulty due to all this pain i'm in brain injury tissue damage and nerve damage, i'm hoping to get N but i'll have to use a bitcoin atm to get the bitcoin because i don't have any identification documents like a passport but first i need to save up a bit of money for like 2 months, just hope to god i get to leave this world soon and rest in peace.

 

[Death is beautiful]

It should be borne in mind that sealed bottles should be opened only at the last moment if you are 99% ready for CTB, otherwise you deprive it of a huge shelf life, I say this for the future, not a remark OP

 

[eternalmelancholy]

Don't beat yourself up. There is no rush. With each incremental step you are closer to ctb. I think you should only do it when it feels right. After all you get one shot at dying, you should do it when you are at peace.

 

[Deleted member 10090]

Hey. Sorry for what's going on. I just looked up in the search to see if N goes bad after breaking the seal and saw this thread. Here's a post from @Mud.:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...-and-is-not-that-bad.34604/page-3#post-676259

Since N isn't my method I could be I'm wrong about this so if anyone knows them correct me. I'll try to see if anything else pops up.

Edit: here's another thread albeit old and though it doesn't explain if breaking the seal will affect the N but someone posted a wikibooks file on the shelf life.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/breaking-the-seal.9682/

If anyone knows anything about N please help.

Edit2: found another thread but the last post says that refrigeration is NOT required but doesn't specify if that's for both unopened N and opened N.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/issues-with-storing-n.15301/#post-296504

I'm getting a lot of conflicting information from what I'm reading so again if anyone knows please help.

Edit3: Here's a recent thread and someone posted that opened N can last up to 30 days but I didn't read enough to see about storing in a fridge.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/so-i-got-my-n.77154/

Edit4: Saw this thread and this post by @greyhound. Post #137

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/goodbye-and-thank-you-ss-method-n.71693/page-5#post-1303829

"I think there is a lot of misinformation about N shelf life once opened on here. It mainly stems from the vet N being injectable and this is what the 1 month shelf life comes from. After that it may not be sterile enough to inject so they recommend vets open a new bottle. For drinking the sterility doesn't matter. I don't know exactly how long it would take to degrade from exposure to oxygen, but certainly a while since they used to sell liquid N as a sedative to be drunk back in the day. I'm sure it would probably be fine for a few months at least."

Well given the misinformation and mixed opinions about opened N I'll just stop. I'm sorry if none of this helps.

i'm not sure if i should put it in the fridge or not. i'm worried about it also being found if so.

I put saran wrap and an elastic band around the rubber stopper and put both of them in a plastic bag.

Thanks for trying to help, i appreciate it <3

 

[Dot]

i wish i was in your position i'd of drank it without to much difficulty due to all this pain i'm in brain injury tissue damage and nerve damage, i'm hoping to get N but i'll have to use a bitcoin atm to get the bitcoin because i don't have any identification documents like a passport but first i need to save up a bit of money for like 2 months, just hope to god i get to leave this world soon and rest in peace.

Srry u r sffrng also bt ths v dffclt situatn 4 OP. Evry1 situatn dffrnt.

 

[Chinaski]

Mate I've been where you are more than once, l know how horribly deflating it is, how you feel desperate to get out but simultaneously trapped within by an unknown force, it's desperate and terrifying and l feel for you.

 

[chocolatebar]

I don't know what to say, so I'm just offering you a warm hug

 

[OnlyTheWind]

Sorry it didn't work out. Don't worry, your time will come when you are ready :)

 

[PeacefulTonic]

Sorry to hear man, but I'm glad you're still with us

 

[dreadpirateroberts69]

Hey, sorry to hear you're having a difficult time. There is never any shame in backing out but it sounds like a frustrating situation. If you don't mind, may I ask if it was your SI that caused you to back out or did it have anything to do with the taste of the N?