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SPREADING DISEASE SINCE 2003 🇮🇹🪞
- Feb 16, 2025
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this thread is made up of three parts:
STORY
i've suffered from a certain level of social anxiety and social impairment since I was born, at the age of 9 OCD started haunting me and never left me and now is stronger than ever.
i suspect being borderline/obsessive compulsive personality disorder since the age of 15-16, maybe always been. maybe social anxiety is a symptom of these things.
physical health issues started at 17 with visual snow syndrome (VSS): chronic headache when I was 18-19. and eye pain that never left me. but it got completely unsustainable at 20. after OS update on the phone last year, i know it sounds strange but trust me, i think wavelength or something (eye protection filter switched from orange-yellow to green-yellow) changed in the phone and all the symptoms exploded. severe eye, neck, head, ear pain.
at 21 i started taking lexotan for another problem that is even worse, hard to explain. lexotan i think makes VSS even worse for me.
this other problem, i sum it up as a "sex addiction" even if that is not correct. it all started when i was 19, I knew this girl whom i became friend with, but it was something more since i felt sexual attachment. this thing got pathological at 20, with this "sex desire" that became "sex need" and it got rapidly worse in the months. the first symptoms: insomnia, sensation that even when sleeping you are not sleeping (always dreaming), disgust for food (i loved eating), too much hunger for food, anxiety with sensation of adrenaline, something running in your arms, hyperventilation, panic attacks.
at 21 things got atrocious: sensation of always being in "a panic attack", an extreme anxiety that is like constant panic, you are in constant extreme adrenaline, extreme hyperventilation, extreme sense of suffocation, extreme pain all over the body. this gets 50x worse during sexual act, after orgasm. i have to take lexotan, otherwise: extreme tachicardia, extreme sense of fainting. but even with lexotan it is atrocious since 21. you have to add chronic pelvic pain syndrome with i think elements of balanithis, congenital phimosis, persistent sexual arousal disorder and post orgasmic illness syndrome. and chronic rhinitis. my OCD has not got worse than ever. my family has mental issues too and makes everything 20x worse. and we lived in a very very small house so that i had to move to my grandma's and now i live with her. but she is very stressful too.
so lexotan is indispensable for me after orgasm.
i have taken laroxyl and now am taking lyrica both for VSS and panic, nothing gets better only worse and
worse.
FIRST QUESTION
i received my SN 5 months ago. it came in a transparent envelope closed with a twist tie.
over this transparent envelope, there was a "full cartoon envelope" and over this one a sort of "half cartoon envelope" which was thicker than the "full" one.
i opened all the envelopes almost two months ago. the SN was very very clumpy, it was "all a piece, like a stone". so i beat it on the table to make it "more rubbery".
i wanted to transfer the SN to multiple LDPE 500ml/mg containers, but i didn't make it. despite wearing latex gloves and FFP2, i started feeling itch and burning sensation all over the body and my nose started becoming reddish, suggesting a sort of "pseudoallergic reaction". so i only transferred literally something like 250mg in a single LDPE container, so this container is not full and the SN in it is theorically in contact with the oxygen within the container.
the remaining quantity, so 750mg, is still in the original transparent envelope.
the same day of the transfer, i sealed the LDPE container and the day after i enveloped it in two blue rubbish bags. over these blue bags i put a ziploc bag taken at a chinese store. i don't about the reliability of these ziploc bags of the chinese store, honestly.
then i closed the transparent envelope with the twist tie. and did the same as for the LDPE container: two blue rubbish bags and then Ziploc bag.
two weeks ago i touched the transparent bag just to feel the consistency of the SN, it remained pretty clumpy.
and i noticed the transparent envelope was not "fully sealed" with the twist tie: there was a little space, a little opening in the envelope. so the 750mg SN has been exposed to the air for almost two months.
now i'm considering putting a big clothespin instead of the twist tie.
my question is:
is the SN still 99%, or at least 95 purity??? both in the transparent envelope and the LDPE??
which is safer??? the one in the envelope or the one in the LDPE???
i want to avoid buying it again.
should i test it??? i have no idea how to do it and, above all, no strength.
SECOND QUESTION
that sort of "pseudoallergic reaction". a simple "ipersensitivity"? what does imply? maybe my chances of vomiting are increased? (i'm particular resistent to vomit, i haven't vomited since 2013.)
and/or maybe i could get an allergic reaction after taking SN? should i add antihistaminic and cortisone to my protocol and how much, what dosage???
will the SN work for me?
i read a thread of a woman who was particularly ipersensitive to nitrites in the food.
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/sodium-nitrite-in-cold-fish-made-me-nauseous.208271/
sorry, i'm really paranoid about that and need
help.
i can't read all of your threads due to my eye condition.
thanks in advance.
- my story/"reasons" for CTB
- a question about the purity of my SN
- a question about a "pseudoallergic" reaction to SN
STORY
i've suffered from a certain level of social anxiety and social impairment since I was born, at the age of 9 OCD started haunting me and never left me and now is stronger than ever.
i suspect being borderline/obsessive compulsive personality disorder since the age of 15-16, maybe always been. maybe social anxiety is a symptom of these things.
physical health issues started at 17 with visual snow syndrome (VSS): chronic headache when I was 18-19. and eye pain that never left me. but it got completely unsustainable at 20. after OS update on the phone last year, i know it sounds strange but trust me, i think wavelength or something (eye protection filter switched from orange-yellow to green-yellow) changed in the phone and all the symptoms exploded. severe eye, neck, head, ear pain.
at 21 i started taking lexotan for another problem that is even worse, hard to explain. lexotan i think makes VSS even worse for me.
this other problem, i sum it up as a "sex addiction" even if that is not correct. it all started when i was 19, I knew this girl whom i became friend with, but it was something more since i felt sexual attachment. this thing got pathological at 20, with this "sex desire" that became "sex need" and it got rapidly worse in the months. the first symptoms: insomnia, sensation that even when sleeping you are not sleeping (always dreaming), disgust for food (i loved eating), too much hunger for food, anxiety with sensation of adrenaline, something running in your arms, hyperventilation, panic attacks.
at 21 things got atrocious: sensation of always being in "a panic attack", an extreme anxiety that is like constant panic, you are in constant extreme adrenaline, extreme hyperventilation, extreme sense of suffocation, extreme pain all over the body. this gets 50x worse during sexual act, after orgasm. i have to take lexotan, otherwise: extreme tachicardia, extreme sense of fainting. but even with lexotan it is atrocious since 21. you have to add chronic pelvic pain syndrome with i think elements of balanithis, congenital phimosis, persistent sexual arousal disorder and post orgasmic illness syndrome. and chronic rhinitis. my OCD has not got worse than ever. my family has mental issues too and makes everything 20x worse. and we lived in a very very small house so that i had to move to my grandma's and now i live with her. but she is very stressful too.
so lexotan is indispensable for me after orgasm.
i have taken laroxyl and now am taking lyrica both for VSS and panic, nothing gets better only worse and
worse.
FIRST QUESTION
i received my SN 5 months ago. it came in a transparent envelope closed with a twist tie.
over this transparent envelope, there was a "full cartoon envelope" and over this one a sort of "half cartoon envelope" which was thicker than the "full" one.
i opened all the envelopes almost two months ago. the SN was very very clumpy, it was "all a piece, like a stone". so i beat it on the table to make it "more rubbery".
i wanted to transfer the SN to multiple LDPE 500ml/mg containers, but i didn't make it. despite wearing latex gloves and FFP2, i started feeling itch and burning sensation all over the body and my nose started becoming reddish, suggesting a sort of "pseudoallergic reaction". so i only transferred literally something like 250mg in a single LDPE container, so this container is not full and the SN in it is theorically in contact with the oxygen within the container.
the remaining quantity, so 750mg, is still in the original transparent envelope.
the same day of the transfer, i sealed the LDPE container and the day after i enveloped it in two blue rubbish bags. over these blue bags i put a ziploc bag taken at a chinese store. i don't about the reliability of these ziploc bags of the chinese store, honestly.
then i closed the transparent envelope with the twist tie. and did the same as for the LDPE container: two blue rubbish bags and then Ziploc bag.
two weeks ago i touched the transparent bag just to feel the consistency of the SN, it remained pretty clumpy.
and i noticed the transparent envelope was not "fully sealed" with the twist tie: there was a little space, a little opening in the envelope. so the 750mg SN has been exposed to the air for almost two months.
now i'm considering putting a big clothespin instead of the twist tie.
my question is:
is the SN still 99%, or at least 95 purity??? both in the transparent envelope and the LDPE??
which is safer??? the one in the envelope or the one in the LDPE???
i want to avoid buying it again.
should i test it??? i have no idea how to do it and, above all, no strength.
SECOND QUESTION
that sort of "pseudoallergic reaction". a simple "ipersensitivity"? what does imply? maybe my chances of vomiting are increased? (i'm particular resistent to vomit, i haven't vomited since 2013.)
and/or maybe i could get an allergic reaction after taking SN? should i add antihistaminic and cortisone to my protocol and how much, what dosage???
will the SN work for me?
i read a thread of a woman who was particularly ipersensitive to nitrites in the food.
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/sodium-nitrite-in-cold-fish-made-me-nauseous.208271/
sorry, i'm really paranoid about that and need
help.
i can't read all of your threads due to my eye condition.
thanks in advance.
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