Breaking relationship with my mother

[fisbp]

The relationship between my mother and I are breaking.
I kept lying to my mother that I was studying, for 3 years.
Every time I lied to her, I promised that I would study.
Yet I did not study, and now 3 years have passed.
I got depression, and because the depression is still ongoing for months, my mother is getting tired of it and started becoming angrier toward me.
Because I am still not studying, she has almost completely lost trust in me.
If I don't pass my AP Calculus BC exam, this will completely screw up our relationship, and I will lose my relationship with the only person I had by my side.
The AP exam is my final chance at saving this relationship.
And for some reason, I DID NOT STUDY and I am fucked.
I would rather CTB than being rejected by my mother.

 

[braindead911]

I'm so sorry she's like that. She needs to understand what you're going through without being so judgmental. She's your mom and should be supportive and caring.

 

[whatevs]

Did you post here with another username in the recent past?

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds like a really stressful situation to be in, and I can imagine that it must be so exhausting. I feel like often, other people are unable to understand as they are not in a similar situation themselves. I'm sorry that you suffer so much and I wish you the best.

 

[asmah]

don't! People always lie and fail, your mother has done the same thing too. To CTB because you are afraid of rejection is not right. She might reject you, but this feeling will fade over time and also you will come clean to her, which can lift this huge burden of your shoulders.