Venting Breaking Point

[Blowba]

I am truly at my breaking point right now I am just crying our of so much anger and I want to end it all. I literally can't stand being alive anymore I am just tired of this I am exhausted of being alive. All that keeps on coming in my life are struggles and more bullshit on top of each other. I feel like I am suffocating I am just a lonely piece of shit I really just can't do this I truly can't. I feel like I am becoming desensitized but at the same time I feel like I am about to go bat shit crazy into a horrible mental breakdown. I regret not going fully with my suicide attempt 2 years ago. I just have the biggest urge to slice my throat I just to fuckin die in my hole or not wake up from my sleep tonight. I just cant live anymore

 

[Red]

Take a deep breath, don't do anything hasty lest you end up worse
Is there something particular that has happened recently that got you to this point right now, or just an inexorable slide into despair??
Either way we hear you and feel your pain - you're not alone

 

[Notwinnernotawin]

Please don't do anything rushed. I totally understand how you're feeling, but don't do anything that'll only hurt you even more. We're here for you.

 

[all_pointless]

Guilts washing all over me since I didn't die years back.