Discussion Brain damage

[Norf I Guess]

I'm thinking about trying whatever I can before going to suicide, and the list is running short. Are there any methods I could use to cause permanent brain damage to myself in hopes of preventing me from being able to think about how things are? I don't really care if it makes me incapable as a person since it's coming down to this or killing myself. Any information or insight is appreciated.

 

[sanctionedusage]

ironically enough a suicide attempt could do that

 

[mushroom_blue]

Honestly I think I'd rather be dead than lose any amount of cognitive function, and I'm saying this despite the fact that I'm already brain damaged in some capacity from previous attempts, alcohol/drug abuse .etc. I really don't see a point in trying to render yourself a vegetable just in the hope you won't feel negative things, can't see why anyone would prefer that over death, and not to metion all the ways it could go horribly wrong. Not trying to come off as judgmental or anything, just giving my thoughts on the matter

 

[DeadManLiving]

How did your brain damage come about if you don't mind sharing?

 

[mushroom_blue]

If you're asking me, I don't mind sharing. I think most of it is from excessive alcohol use, particularly during my teen years, though I didn't have consistent access to it, I drank very heavily anytime I was able to. Aside from that, I had a nearly successful PSH attempt, and a couple of bad diphenhydramine OD's. I'm actually really thankful I never had access to hard drugs, knowing myself and what addiction can do to someone, I'd likely be a much different and probably much worse person than I am now, or perhaps I wouldn't be here at all. (Also, I've never consulted a doctor/neurologist, so me saying that I have brain damage is purely anecdotal, while I'm still a relatively high functioning person, I don't believe I am anywhere near as sharp or alert as I should be at this age, and I think the reasons I stated earlier are to blame, as I remember being much brighter as an adolescent)

 

[Norf I Guess]

Honestly I think I'd rather be dead than lose any amount of cognitive function, and I'm saying this despite the fact that I'm already brain damaged in some capacity from previous attempts, alcohol/drug abuse .etc. I really don't see a point in trying to render yourself a vegetable just in the hope you won't feel negative things, can't see why anyone would prefer that over death, and not to metion all the ways it could go horribly wrong. Not trying to come off as judgmental or anything, just giving my thoughts on the matter

On why I'd rather be a vegetable, there's a small handful of people that aren't interested in me dying and I figured I should try things that'll make things suck less than killing myself first.