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Aflame5926

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Saints And Sinners What GIF by Bounce
 
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When I was here playing earlier, I was on the phone with a friend the entire time. Love her, but she goes on forever. My dad comes home, sees that I'm still on the phone with her which I had been when he left two hours prior. Made the gunshot to his head motion. If he only knew lol < sighs>

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When I was here playing earlier, I was on the phone with a friend the entire time. Love her, but she goes on forever. My dad comes home, sees that I'm still on the phone with her which I had been when he left two hours prior. Made the gunshot to his head motion. If he only knew lol < sighs>

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Damn, that sucks... God forbid people have fun/friends! :/

He needs to wait his turn.
 
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yeah but then again its nice to have some friends. even tho it might be sometimes be a nuisance tho
 
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aaah i see it now. i havent played it so no nostalgy for me.

but yeah i can imagine people that played feel deep nostagy for that one

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That's good then. It's moreso because I have a dog and nostalgia always finds a way to cripple me even if I don't have a deep connection with the subject in mind. Ahaha.
 
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yeah but then again its nice to have some friends. even tho it might be sometimes be a nuisance tho
Sorry, I wasn't clear in my points and plus we don't have much interaction history.
Agree- great to have a friend!
But we met in the mental hospital after our stupid ctb attempts. So I always find it awkward when my dad does that around me. More so, I guess he just assumes I no longer think that way or feel that way? Do people think it just magically disappears? Any of you have that issue?

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not really i lost contact with those i met there.
but then again they were much older then i was. i was like 24ish and they were all 35+
 
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but you still find the contact good right with that person?
its not like it pulls you down right?
 
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Yes. Can pull me down at times in certain ways. She can be an emotional handful lol

I was just more referring to the gesture my dad made with the shooting yourself in the head and if he just thinks I see that as a joke nowadays without really feeling like I don't want to ctb

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Do people think it just magically disappears?
I feel like, as time passes, people tend to assume that if you haven't tried again or shown any obvious signs, then those thoughts and feelings must have gone away

But I can't say for sure, I'm really good at masking these things, almost no one knows about my attempt. So my impression is that everyone around me genuinely believes I'm doing fine

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Yes. Can pull me down at times in certain ways. She can be an emotional handful lol

I was just more referring to the gesture my dad made with the shooting yourself in the head and if he just thinks I see that as a joke nowadays without really feeling like I don't want to ctb

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oooh i thought it was more meant as a joke about somebody that keep talking non stop.

atleast i do the same thing when lets say mentionce to others if we talk about that person.
because atleast for me its to exhausting to hear non stop shit. ofcs the contect is much different tho.
 
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My parents didn't feel like making up a story for the neighbors or anything so they told absolutely everyone we know what I did. That's a therapy session for another day lol

But yeah, I guess you are right I pretend like I am a good little soldier and all better so no one questions a mask. I just sit here thinking they're idiots if they think that the feelings magically go away

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