I experienced this with my former therapist that intentionally wrote lies in my medical records. Before that happened our relationship was strained and she blamed me for various things. Though, in most cases I could prove with evidence that the things she claimed were false. She was increasingly pissed about that (that I was right.) And eventually it errupted in this blatant abuse of power. The organization that should monitor psychotherapists backed her even though the evidence were quite clear that she was lying. This proved me these organizations don't really want justice they want to maintain the reputation of the vocation that they represent. And this is disgusting as fuck. My point is they all back each other in case it gets hard. So I realized it is probably better to retreat than to fight a war you cannot win.
But this time it is about someone else. So I go to my dentist quite frequently. Each half a year for controlling my teeth. I once saw my gorgeous dentist on a dating app and I gave her a boosted like. Nothing came back though. But I didn't expect anything else. This was last year. I think I like her a lot and I think she likes me as a patient too. My dental hygiene is very important when I go there. I had now 4 appointments at this dentist within 4 week. First appointment there was the control she decided a filling has to be renewed. Second appointment. I had the feeling I smelled badly under my armpits. And I had the feeling she smelled that. Afterwards I panicked a lot and had my usual overthinking and extreme rumination. After I got the filling I had strong pain when I ate something which wasn't totally soft. I went there again and she reduced the height of the filling. I hoped this would fix it finally. However I still have a lot of pain when eating something hard. And especially when it is cold and hard. And today I had the final appointment. I was not really sure what to say. Because she reduced the height of the filling as good as possible. She did some tests. And then they blamed my crunching. I crunch a lot because of my mental health issues I assume. And I told them I cannot sleep with grinding teeth guard. Partly I can understand why they blame my crunching. It could actually increase the strain on my teeth. And as a fact the pain is bigger at the morning. And during night you crunch the most. It sort of felt like a blame game though and I was the one to get blamed for not wearing the teeth guard. I think I reflected already a lot about this pain and I think this was benefical in this situation to defend me. I had the grinding teeth guard with me which was very good. I wanted her to check the guard once again because the last time I wore the guard for a long time I had extreme pain in my teeth afterwards. So much pain that I feared it would actually destroy my teeth. It was quite scary. So she checked my grinding teeth guard. And her first response was: "seemingly you don't have this guard from us..." I told her no I have it from her. Then she had to admit it was completely false adjusted to my teeth. She is still a quite young denist. She is even younger than me. I think I looked confused and asking myself some questions. Personally, I now consider to go to my former dentist (if he takes me) and ask him for a second opinion. It is nothnig personal. There are various explanations for the current pain of my teeth. But one explanation is that she botched the filing, she doesn't evaluate the height of my filling properly or even worse. This last appointment was uncomfortable for me. I hate blame games. But I learned not to go for a confrontation if there are ways around that because I now know how rigged the game is against you as a patient.
With my psychiatrist I have an overall (very) good relation. I feel horrible and she knows that. But she isn't responsible for that. Instead she does everything that is possible. I wonder if my manipulative therapist called her once again. I hope not. The next appointment could become stressful otherwise. I think my former therapist shouldn't be allowed to call her again. I withdrew the releasae from confidentiality. I hope for the best.
Edit: by the way the very irony. Today I had the feeling she smelled badly. I think she had a bad breath. She will probably worry less than me about that. And I think her job is extremely stressful and hard. I could never do that with my mental fragility.
But this time it is about someone else. So I go to my dentist quite frequently. Each half a year for controlling my teeth. I once saw my gorgeous dentist on a dating app and I gave her a boosted like. Nothing came back though. But I didn't expect anything else. This was last year. I think I like her a lot and I think she likes me as a patient too. My dental hygiene is very important when I go there. I had now 4 appointments at this dentist within 4 week. First appointment there was the control she decided a filling has to be renewed. Second appointment. I had the feeling I smelled badly under my armpits. And I had the feeling she smelled that. Afterwards I panicked a lot and had my usual overthinking and extreme rumination. After I got the filling I had strong pain when I ate something which wasn't totally soft. I went there again and she reduced the height of the filling. I hoped this would fix it finally. However I still have a lot of pain when eating something hard. And especially when it is cold and hard. And today I had the final appointment. I was not really sure what to say. Because she reduced the height of the filling as good as possible. She did some tests. And then they blamed my crunching. I crunch a lot because of my mental health issues I assume. And I told them I cannot sleep with grinding teeth guard. Partly I can understand why they blame my crunching. It could actually increase the strain on my teeth. And as a fact the pain is bigger at the morning. And during night you crunch the most. It sort of felt like a blame game though and I was the one to get blamed for not wearing the teeth guard. I think I reflected already a lot about this pain and I think this was benefical in this situation to defend me. I had the grinding teeth guard with me which was very good. I wanted her to check the guard once again because the last time I wore the guard for a long time I had extreme pain in my teeth afterwards. So much pain that I feared it would actually destroy my teeth. It was quite scary. So she checked my grinding teeth guard. And her first response was: "seemingly you don't have this guard from us..." I told her no I have it from her. Then she had to admit it was completely false adjusted to my teeth. She is still a quite young denist. She is even younger than me. I think I looked confused and asking myself some questions. Personally, I now consider to go to my former dentist (if he takes me) and ask him for a second opinion. It is nothnig personal. There are various explanations for the current pain of my teeth. But one explanation is that she botched the filing, she doesn't evaluate the height of my filling properly or even worse. This last appointment was uncomfortable for me. I hate blame games. But I learned not to go for a confrontation if there are ways around that because I now know how rigged the game is against you as a patient.
With my psychiatrist I have an overall (very) good relation. I feel horrible and she knows that. But she isn't responsible for that. Instead she does everything that is possible. I wonder if my manipulative therapist called her once again. I hope not. The next appointment could become stressful otherwise. I think my former therapist shouldn't be allowed to call her again. I withdrew the releasae from confidentiality. I hope for the best.
Edit: by the way the very irony. Today I had the feeling she smelled badly. I think she had a bad breath. She will probably worry less than me about that. And I think her job is extremely stressful and hard. I could never do that with my mental fragility.
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