AloneGunManTheory
Member
- Jul 21, 2026
- 29
i jsut wrote i giant ass vent post and i accidentally closed out of it its all fucking gone. holy fuck please let me die please let me die please someone comea nd shoot me in my dumb fucking head i fucking hate my life so much. there is no fucking god. fuck it might as well rewrite it
im going to be using this forum as a diary for a little bit if that is okay with all of you.
i love him so muc i feel like the fucking bjork stalker, shave my head and put a gun to my mouth and listen to his voice as he tells me i am nohting. his birthday creeps closer meaning he is going to go fully public with his art, im gonna see him everywhere. i just saw some fanart of his oc earlier today and i froze up like a deer in headlights. my heart starting racing as i froze. i love him. i dont want sex. i dont want pleasure. i want pure love, holding eachother close and buying him everything he wants. i will never have the same feelings for anyone else and i hate myself for it. everyone is going to be drawing his OC in the art community. im gonna have to leave the entire art community if i want to fully be away from him. and thats the only community i have. i am leaving the only commuity i have because i developed a parasocial possessive relationship with someone who doesnt even think about me. hpw fucking pathetic is that? i cant even fucking kill myself, i cant find my moms revolver i need it so bad, i need to feel the cold smooth metal glazing my lips and sliding into my mouth as it pokes the roof. let it rip and splatter my brains everywhere. his smut art is so finger licking amazing i love watchign his art progress and get better and better. i need to confess i stalked him and his family on facebook once. we have so much in common its unreal, i violently seperate myself from things i enjoy simply because he enjoys them. please someone help
im going to be using this forum as a diary for a little bit if that is okay with all of you.
i love him so muc i feel like the fucking bjork stalker, shave my head and put a gun to my mouth and listen to his voice as he tells me i am nohting. his birthday creeps closer meaning he is going to go fully public with his art, im gonna see him everywhere. i just saw some fanart of his oc earlier today and i froze up like a deer in headlights. my heart starting racing as i froze. i love him. i dont want sex. i dont want pleasure. i want pure love, holding eachother close and buying him everything he wants. i will never have the same feelings for anyone else and i hate myself for it. everyone is going to be drawing his OC in the art community. im gonna have to leave the entire art community if i want to fully be away from him. and thats the only community i have. i am leaving the only commuity i have because i developed a parasocial possessive relationship with someone who doesnt even think about me. hpw fucking pathetic is that? i cant even fucking kill myself, i cant find my moms revolver i need it so bad, i need to feel the cold smooth metal glazing my lips and sliding into my mouth as it pokes the roof. let it rip and splatter my brains everywhere. his smut art is so finger licking amazing i love watchign his art progress and get better and better. i need to confess i stalked him and his family on facebook once. we have so much in common its unreal, i violently seperate myself from things i enjoy simply because he enjoys them. please someone help
