Betrayal in our grief

[sleepcat]

My partner and I lost our baby cat from cardiomyopathy on Jan 3. I've always assumed I'd die this way, and this finally felt like relief - self harm and ideation make the grief lighten. I told him my plan, which would require him, and he said he's just not willing to do that. He still "feels hopeful." We had this conversation during a late night cry about two weeks ago but I still can't get over it. I feel like I'm just staying here to bide time and because I owe it to others. It feels so unfair and so lonely. Grief is more painful than anything and we have a chance.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds like a painful situation to be in, I'm sorry you are going through this. I know that it can be hard to carry on when you are suffering so much, this life can be very dreadful. Whatever happens, I wish you the best.