I was in a psychiatry myself quite a bit. But at some point you'll probably will get day release, where you can go out for 15 minutes or so without someone watching you. Then you just could escape and do it in the forest. Maybe it's possible to buy a strong rope in a hardware store.
But maybe that's not possible for you. Are you really sure you will be in the psychiatry or in jail for years? Sometimes some people, such as myself, see things too pessimistic.
You actually got me thinking there, If things go well I might be allowed a 1 day visit to my mom. Perhaps I could do it then lol, I mean, I'll have nurses with me, but I'm still pretty sure I'll get more privacy than in the psych ward, and even if I don't, I could easily sneak out one of the windows on 1st floor lmao. Idk if I wanna ruin the visit like that tho...
Tnx for the idea tho, I'll keep that in mind ;)
If they are giving u any meds: dont swallow them. Spit them out and stash them.
Prepare your Rope. Find a place that will hold your weight. A spot where u can get everything setted up and could hang yourself without the meds. Somewhere they won't find you for a couple of hours. In the psych wards I've been u just need some time to figure out when the right time would be. When do they switch their shifts and stuff like this. The bed sheets make a good rope.
When u feel rdy u take all of the pills at the same time and hang yourself. The timing has to be right with the meds and the staff not looking for you.
Someone I met in psych ward ctb like this after he figured out a pretty good plan. He was a nice guy talked with him there for 2 weeks straight about everything that came to our mind. But he was done with this world and all its bullshit.
I wish u luck and strength my firend. May you find piece.
And like celan posted before maybe you can gather the strength to wait. To ctb in there rly doesn't sound appealing.
Assuming ur talking about sedatives, then yeah, that's a great idea, the problem is that I've gotten caught stacking up before, so I have to wait until they trust me again, If I start stacking up again right away, I might get caught and I don't want that to happen lol. I guess I might have to wait after all lol, I was gonna do it together with a friend, so now I'll have to dissapoint them :/ But if doing it tonight means I wouldn't succeed anyways, then, what's the point? Ur definetely right about that. I'm truly thankfull for all the advice I'm getting though, tysm <3