Venting Being broke makes me so suicidal

[mob]

I'm back at work after 3 months of school, and logged in to see my salary that I'll get tomorrow on my bank account.
Guess what? It's 250 bucks. Which means I definitely can't survive this month. My rent alone is 370€ and I have two cats to take care of. I won't be able to afford their food, let alone my rent. Eletricity bills, etc.
Also, I'm most probably getting fired real soon for my absences due to mental health, I'll probably be jobless at the end of this month. I won't be able to survive.
I'd been planning to fly to Japan for an internship, everything has already been booked. However, I probably won't be able to afford it and if I have to call it off, I'll have to pay a huge sum of money, around 3.5k.

I literally can't do this. I hate how everything depends on money, money, money. If I can't survive this month, I'll ctb at the end of April. It's not worth it anymore.

 

[pretentioussuika]

I literally can't do this. I hate how everything depends on money, money, money.

Just sums it up perfectly tbh

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Money is the fuel in our world. A lack of money makes me suicidal. I can relate.

 

[Still here]

Money is the fuel in our world. A lack of money makes me suicidal. I can relate.

This is too bad.....

 

[davidtorez]

I'd say 50% of my depression is due to lack of money. I totally understand

 

[SmilingNoMore]

Yip, it makes things impossible, not having it. And then they say money can't buy happiness, maybe not, but it can definitely pay the bills.

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

I can relate. Been broke all my life. Parents were broke too so I grew up broke. Everything seems to revolve around stupid little pieces of paper.

 

[dulldark]

Money could solve all of my problems. No lie. The rich stay winning.