Venting been wishing to die for a few years now

[fuhloof]

... with no willpower to actively seek it out. stuck in a bottleneck where im desperately craving death yet too scared/lazy to ctb.

really hoping i can disappear in my sleep, but thats not gonna happen cause im a healthy adolescent person.

 

[Of The Universe]

I'm sorry this hit you so young!
Maybe there's a chance for you to fight? I hope so!

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case, I have never wanted to live but yet I am still here as suicide is so difficult. I also wish I could just fall asleep and never wake, to me it sounds so peaceful to be free from all suffering. I'm sorry you are in this situation, I know that it is awful when you do not want to live but yet you are trapped in this world. I want death more than anything. I wish you the best in whatever happens.