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mentalhealthfighter

mentalhealthfighter

Lets win together
Jun 15, 2021
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I gave recovery a try. Started taking lithium for my bipolar. At first it seemed like it was helping but now I feel suicidal again. So I'm back. tbh I feel like death is calling me. My mom keeps stopping and stopping me but theres gonna be a point where I can't take it anymore. I don't want this life anymore. I dont want these shitty genetics anymore. Just give me peace. Hoping i can convince my mom soon and I buy SN.
 
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Idontmatter

Just want it all to be over
Oct 25, 2021
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I gave recovery a try. Started taking lithium for my bipolar. At first it seemed like it was helping but now I feel suicidal again. So I'm back. tbh I feel like death is calling me. My mom keeps stopping and stopping me but theres gonna be a point where I can't take it anymore. I don't want this life anymore. I dont want these shitty genetics anymore. Just give me peace. Hoping i can convince my mom soon and I buy SN.
I had the same experience with Lithium. They prescribed it to me in the mental facility I was put in. It seemed to work and now not so much. My suicidal thoughts are 24/7 now
 
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mentalhealthfighter

mentalhealthfighter

Lets win together
Jun 15, 2021
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I had the same experience with Lithium. They prescribed it to me in the mental facility I was put in. It seemed to work and now not so much. My suicidal thoughts are 24/7 now
Do you still take lithium now or quit?
 
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Idontmatter

Just want it all to be over
Oct 25, 2021
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Do you still take lithium now or quit?
I quit. I probably shouldn't have but I feel like I'm taking medications for nothing. They put me on multiple medications. Zoloft and Wellbutrin which I'm still taking. I'm tired of medications not working. I'm pretty much done. My sn got delivered today so I'm making plans.
Also it seems, at least where I was, that recovery places just care about prescribing and doing stuff just so they can bill insurance companies for revenue instead of actually helping the patient. My personal opinion, I just wish there was a place that actually cared. I'm sorry that you are having to go through this bad time.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I'm sorry that recovery did not work out. I hope you find the peace you are looking for. There is no peace in this life, only suffering. I would never tell family members about being suicidal, they would just try and stop me.
 
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